October 21, 2016 Friday Morning

Hello.  I am still alive and getting through life.

My followers will be happy to know I finally broke down and made an appointment and went to the appointment last week Monday with a counselor at ARCW here in Milwaukee.  We started a health assessment and the counselor thinks I should see a shrink and likely get on some mild depression meds.  She is sending a recommendation so I can see the person there at the office.  They will then test me for depression which she feels I have at this point.  It took a lot to finally get in there but I am proud I made these first steps.  I see her again next week and the shrink and testing will be some time down the road.  I simply can not cry as much as I do doing a day.  I can not go through life thinking about death and dying daily. 

I got a letter this week from social security asking me to update my information and health records to see if my benefits will continue or be cut.  I am some days honestly just not able to work.  Most days.  Especially the ones where I start off the day throwing up bile in the sink at 6 AM.  Not sure what job will let me take a nap from 1 - 3 daily.  I would then loose my Medicare and health insurance so I am very scared.  When I originally was awarded SS it was for 5 - 7 years and then to be reviewed.  I am at the end of my seventh year. 

The nice Summer weather has come to an end.  I do not mind the 50s or 60s, but when it starts to get to the 40s and lower it makes it very difficult to get the energy to go outside and walk the dogs.  The dogs are all doing great, all six of them.  I took a picture recently of them all in the Packer Jerseys for this years Christmas card.  Here it is.

Is that cute as hell or what?

So, I am still pretty much the same mentally and physically, the best news is I am starting therapy to help with my depression and sadness.  Will let you know how this works as we go along this new path.  I am not opposed to depression meds, but have used them in the past with not good results.  My counselor says the meds have come a long way from when I was taking them 20 years ago.

Hope you are all doing well.  Please stop posting silly cures or home remedies.  I will just delete them.