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Monday, July 28, 2014

July 28, 2014 Monday Afternoon

I can not believe my last post was almost two weeks ago.

Know I am well and the lack of posting is not because life is bad.  In fact life is very good. 
This Summer in Wisconsin has been awesome.  It has mostly been in the 70s and that is how I like it.  We have only had to turn the air conditioning on a handful of days all Summer so far.  I guess if I had a pool I would feel differently.  We spend a lot of time at home with the dogs and happy.

Last week Wednesday Kali came up to me in obvious distress.  She was panting and very hot.  Shaking like a leaf.  I called Tony and soon we had her to the vet.  I had a feeling it might be Pancreatitis because she has had it before and the symptoms seems similar.  The vet did a bunch of tests, pumped Kali with fluids, pain meds and antibiotics and took xrays and blood tests.  The bill was $500.  Kali came home and slept the night away from the pain shot.  I have been giving her pain meds up to today.  She has gotten better with each day and I think she is pretty much back to her 'old self'.  Kali is over 15 years old now as of this month.   I cherish each day knowing it could be the last.  In fact when we took her to the vet last week we took a blanket thinking and prepared for the worst.  Thankfully we dodged a bullet this time and I get more time with Kali.

Last Friday night was the 24 hour bike ride around our neighborhood.  A good night to get out and enjoy the neighborhood feeling safe with over 1000 people out and about biking.  Various activities going on around at the local bars also.  We did take our bikes out at 10 PM Friday night and rode around Riverwest.   Had a drink at one of the bars and just enjoyed the nice weather and people. 

Saturday we rode our bikes up for breakfast a couple blocks and sat and watched the bike riders go by.   In the afternoon we rode our bikes to a street festival on Brady street and walked around having a couple strawberry margaritas and food around the festival.  The weather was great again.  We were going to go back Saturday night but we were tired and stayed home and watched the movie Hunger Games Catching Fire.  Was good and now can't wait to see the next in the series.

Sunday morning we went out for breakfast at a local restaurant and sat outside enjoying the music from the church across the street.  In the afternoon we went down to the Milwaukee lakefront and watched the volleyball tournaments going on.  Had a drink and some nachos.  Later in the afternoon after we got home Tony watched TV and I still had a bit of energy.  Figured I would take down my ramp in the side yard I built last Summer for my scooter and make the yard a bit bigger for all the dogs.  Got it half un assembled before calling it a night. 

Today I finished taking down the ramp and extended the yard with the fencing to the pond for the dogs.  I do keep the pond fenced off so no one drowns in the pond.

Rose and Casper received two hand made blanket throws from a woman that makes blankets for foster dogs.  They are beautiful and too nice for the dogs.    Here is a picture of the dogs and their blankets.  People have been so nice to us regarding the foster dogs.  SO  nice with all the bad in the world you hear on the daily basis.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

July 16, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Another week has gone by.  All the dogs are still alive and doing well.  Tony and I are doing OK also.

We went to a family pool party on Saturday.  It was cloudy and cool so neither one of us went swimming.  First time not swimming.  Actually miss it because it has always been one of the few times to go swimming and a pool.  Hour drive to the party, stayed for a few hours and then the drive home, was the longest the new dogs have been alone in their crates.  They were good when we got home and happy to be out.

Sunday we met Tony's sister at a local festival and spent a couple hours sitting on the lake front listening to music. 

Yesterday Casper got neutered, had a mole removed and 5 teeth worked on.  Got him back from the vet by 5 PM and spent the night by his side.  He cried and whimpered for hours.  Found out today it is more the pain meds than the pain itself.   Today he is doing good and even grabbed a bone to chew on for a while.  Rose still goes to work with Tony for a half day and I either pick her up or Tony drops her off at the house around noon.  Enjoy the mornings to clean with no fences and gates.

Was feeding and giving attention to a stray cat the past week or more.  Finally broke down and decided to catch it and give it a good home.  Of course we just did this yesterday and an hour ago the neighbor comes up to me asking if I have his cat.  No good deed goes unpunished.  Tony was not happy that he has to call this family back and get the cat from them since they fell in love with it immediately.  Wow.  No good deed goes unpunished.  I know I said it twice.

Making a pot roast for supper and will spend the night at home with the dogs since Casper needs to stay calm and recover from yesterday's surgery.  Tomorrow I have a skin doctor appointment to check the scabs I keep getting mostly on the crown of my head.  I wear hats when in the sun lately so I am thinking it is not the sun.  It was always my original diagnosis after the HIV meds of course. 

Life is the dogs lately.  Actually makes for a happy Dave.  I think I am at the happiest point in my life to be honest.  Have gotten rid of all the bad and just keep to myself and enjoy my house and home which seems to give me the most happiness. 

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

July 8, 2014 Tuesday Morning

The days go by so fast.

We had a great 4th of July weekend.  Spent the 4th close to home and then watched the fireworks that night from our back deck from the park a block away.  Very nice view and it is nice to be alone and snuggle during the fireworks and not feel like your in public and people are watching. 

Saturday afternoon we went to Summerfest for  a couple hours.  Big music festival on the Milwaukee lakefront.  Tony got free tickets so it was worth going to the festival for a couple hours.  Spent the night watching movies or TV from the DVR.

Sunday morning we went out for breakfast at a cafĂ© on the east side and sat outside.  Was a very nice relaxed breakfast.  Spent the rest of the day with the dogs.

As you can tell most would think life is pretty boring.  Between taking care of the house, the dogs, Tony and everything that comes at one in life, I keep busy.  Tony and I are happy to stay home with each other and the dogs and just be content at home.  I think it is a nice place to be in life ...  others might have a different opinion, which brings me to todays rant ......

I do keep busy all day with the dogs and the three blogs I run.  Five dogs and an Italian husband that doesn't want to do anything after he gets home from work can keep one busy all day.  My bills are paid and I am very happy.   My social security and rental income pays all my monthly bills.  With that said on yesterdays Lawlessmilwaukeecouple picture and post my dad posted a comment:   Dave, if you have this much time on your hands to keep this going, I think you should get a job..    
I know my dad is old school and worked very hard as a dad to keep us all happy.  My problem is him thinking that just because I don't have a job I must not be happy or fulfilled?  If my bills are paid and we have a savings and live within our means,  why is getting a job so important?  To him having a job might mean happiness.  To me, staying home, doing what I want when I want all day, because I can, makes me happy.  We don't and have not been on a vacation for over 10 years and very happy to just stay home.  We don't have credit card debt and the house is paid off.  Why should I get a job because I have so much time on my hands?  I feel like dad thinks I am less a person because I don't work and I don't understand why one has anything to do with the other.  If I won the lottery would I still need to work to be happy in my dads eyes?   I guess the only way to know what dad is really thinking is to ask but I honestly think I know the answer ...  he thinks happiness comes from working hard and making money.  I did work hard.  I make money and pay my bills.  I am at the happiest point in my life.  Sad that at 53 years old what my dad thinks still matters and can hurt.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

July 3, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Tenants moved out on Monday.  They did a good job of cleaning and I gave them back their security deposit today. 

Posted my new numbers from Mondays HIV doctor appointment, and was happy with them.  My Tcell count went down just a bit, but my percent of good cells went up, which is important.  So between the two they balance themselves out and I am still doing great.

Been busy with the dogs and just keeping the house going.  Tony should be home soon.  No plans other than a car show and walking the dogs this weekend.

Our new tenants might come over this weekend to look at the apartment and do some painting.

Life is good.  Happy Forth Of July everyone.

Monday, June 30, 2014

June 30, 2014 Monday Morning

Was a busy week with the dogs.  All is good and I am happy to say no one has gotten hurt and everyone seems to be adjusting.  Rose is still kept separate from the other dogs.  She has her moments when I wonder what she is thinking and what she would do if she got to the other side of the fence.  Most times though they all walk past each other on the fence line with little care for each other. 

Watched a bunch of movies during the week that I downloaded.  Watched 13 Sins (great horror movie like the Saw movie series), Almost Human, Haunt, Wolverine, Burning Blue (very good movie about the witch hunts on gays during don't ask don't tell) and Scrooge and Marley ( a take off of the old Christmas classic with a gay slant).   All were good movies and would recommend any of them to watch. 

Today our tenants upstairs move out.  They have been loading cars this morning but was told a paid moving company comes at noonish today to move them.  I love how two people without jobs, who do nothing all day, have to hire a moving company to move their little bit of crap.  No money and take the system for all they can get, but too damn lazy to move their own stuff.  Heard her mother is paying for the moving company.  I have an appointment at 1:30 today with my HIV doctor so Tony is coming home to watch the house as they move out.  Otherwise we find things missing months down the road from the basement.  Last time both air conditioners went missing and other items from the basement.  Will be so happy tonight when they are finally gone.  Will do a happy dance.  The new tenants, a young married couple, move in on the 15th of the month.

Will post my blood test results later today when I get home from the doctor.  Always a little nervous to see my HIV doctor even after 5 years of this.  Always wonder what 'bad' might be waiting for me in my blood results.  Will hope everything keeps improving like the past.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

June 24, 2014 Tuesday Morning

I can't believe it has been almost a week since I posted last.  Know that means things are good and I am busy with the dogs, Tony and life. 

Saturday morning Rose got her stitches out from her spay two weeks earlier.  She was so good and let the vet take them out and not a growl.  There was a lot going on around the city but the weather did not cooperate.  It was foggy and rained here and there during the weekend.  Saturday afternoon we did go to the North Avenue block party on the eastside.  Stayed for a while but every time we got to a new band stand they would be playing their last song and then go on break.  I even commented to Tony how people should not be with us if they want to hear music and see a band.  We also went and looked at and bought a new massage chair.  I don't even know where to start on this one.  Tony and I have been together over 25 years and we have never been so 'off' when it comes to a decision made by the two of us.  We have owned a massage chair for over 20 years.  It is worn and I have to replace the back sometimes as it wears through, but it does what I want on my back and I love it.  I can sit in it for two minutes and have it go up and down, crack my back, and I am better.  Tony has never used or liked the chair.  On Tuesday last week he hands me an add in the paper of a massage chair to call on and see what they want for it.  Tony said 'he wanted a new one and wanted the one we have out of the living room'.  I thought he now wanted a massage chair and was happy to go buy it, if that made him happy, and put mine in a spare room for the few times and need and use it.  I called, Saturday afternoon we went to look at it and ended up buying it.  Spent $800, got it home, in the house, and after we both sat in it for a while and used it I looked at Tony and said 'well, I hope you like it, I will put mine in the spare room because I like it much better'.  Tony looked at me and said 'I never liked a massage chair and bought it for you'.  WTF?   Honestly I could not believe we could be so far off on this decision and now we wasted $800.  I cut coupons for goodness sake, this is a huge chunk of money to me.  It honestly ruined the rest of my day looking at the chair sitting in the room.  Hopefully Tony will take it to work and sell it on Craigslist or to a friend and we will take a small loss.  I am still shaking my head as I type this and if it wasn't so wet, damp and rainy outside I would have him get the chair out of here now.

Sunday we went and had breakfast with Tony's mom.  Bought lottery tickets and ham and rolls on the way home.  Spent most of the day around the house.  We did ride our bikes to the lakefront to see the air show, only to get there and have the beach so fogged in the show was canceled for the second day in a row.  Lot of unhappy people in Milwaukee because of this.

Monday Tony took Rose to work with him for the morning.  She came home at noon and spent the afternoon napping.  I re arranged the living room furniture, basically flipping the room furniture for a better lay out for fencing off the dogs.  A package arrived late in the afternoon from another Rose and Casper fan full of toys and treats.  It is so nice to know there really are good people out there in the world when you see and hear about all the bad all day on the Internet.   I see a lot of abuse in animals lately since I have become involved with fostering Rose and Casper.  Some stories just make you wonder what the hell is wrong with the human race. 

The sun is out today (right now) and I think I will shower so I can take Casper and Bo for a walk before the rain comes back this afternoon.  I walk them separately, just easier, plus Casper gets spooked by noises and I need to keep a firm arm on him walking him.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

June 19, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Was all set to go in and get my blood drawn on Tuesday morning.  Not having any coffee for an hour or two is not good for me or anyone around me.  Got up Tuesday morning by 6 AM.  Right after I fed the dogs the power went out due to a storm that went through an hour earlier.  The power did not go on again until close to noon.  Thought it best not to go out and leave the dogs in a dark and quiet house so I decided to try again Wednesday morning.  Of course by this time the coffee Tony made an hour or more ago was cold and no microwave or power to heat the coffee.  Tony came home around 9 AM and started the gas generator he bought for Christmas the year before last.  We have never used it up to this point so I though it would be interesting to see if it works and what I can attach to it.  Got the coffee warmed in the microwave first.  Then moved the cord to the living room and got the stereo and TV going with the cable box also connected.  Just as I though things were good the generator ran out of gas.  Tony did say he was going to get more over an hour ago.  When I called the shop I was told he had a meeting and would be back home with gas around 11:15 AM.  He did and after 15 minutes the power went back on.  It was a very good test of the generator and I am happy I can connect the computer, TV, stereo and cable.  Life would go on.

Wednesday morning I did get my blood drawn.  Now I wait a week and a half until my doctor appointment to get my results.  Spent the day doing things around the house with the dogs.  Did go get my monthly HIV meds and food from the pantry on Wednesday also.  Last night we watched the movie Nonstop.  It was a good movie and I recommend it.

Today is four weeks since we picked up Rose and Casper in Waukegan Illinois and became foster parents for them.  Here is a picture comparing their look from the day we got them and this morning.

Monday, June 16, 2014

June 16, 2014 Monday Morning

Lately we seem to be getting up in the morning around 5 AM.  Once one dog needs to go outside they all seem to need to go outside and relieve themselves.  Tony usually starts his day with the small dogs in the living room with him and I lay on the bed with Rose and Casper for a while giving Rose some hugs and bed time since she sleeps in a cage all night.

Friday night we found our next tenants for upstairs.  They are a couple around 30 years old and both are employed.  They were very nice and Tony and I could tell they would be a great tenants.  They filled out the paperwork and dropped off half month rent on Saturday.  I took down the for rent sign and consider the upstairs rented as of July 15.  We will loose a half months rent but worth it to get these two as tenants. 

Saturday we were up by 5:30 AM.  I first feed the big dogs in the kitchen while the little dogs are in the living room.  As they eat I prepare Vito's Insulin shot.  When they are done eating I put them out the kitchen side doors to the side yard and then bring the little dogs into the kitchen to feed them.  It is a constant shuffle and keeping what gates are open or closed in your head can be quite daunting at times.  Took the dogs all for walks in the morning.  Around noon we went to Walgreen's to pick up some of Tony prescriptions and then to the pet store to return some items and of course buy twice as much as we returned.  Went to lunch at Taco Bell after the pet store.  Spent the afternoon at home with the dogs.  Saturday night we went out to eat and had pizza.  Spent the rest of the night watching the movie Grand Budapest Hotel.  I thought it would be better than it was from all I had heard.  Was not very good and boring to be honest. 

Sunday morning we took Bo, Casper and Rose for a walk around the neighborhood.  First time walking all three and it worked out OK.  I still like having one dog to control, not two.  We left the house around noon to go to my parents house for Father's Day.  Had a great afternoon with the family and the two dogs were angels.  Here is a picture of my mom and sister with the two dogs.
Got home around 4:30 PM and spent the rest of the night watching TV from the DVR and then a movie on some off channel.  Don't even know what the movie was called and fell asleep soon after it started.

This morning Tony was up at 5 AM, I stayed in bed with the two big dogs for an hour longer while he had the small dogs in the living room with him.  Already have cut the grass and trimmed some over growth in the back garden.  Glad I got it done because it is getting hot and humid outside and I just turned on the central air conditioning.  Looks like it will be on for the next few days.  Soon I will leave for the pet store again to exchange and return some harnesses and a muzzle.  Need a smaller muzzle.  I should just take the dog with me so I get the right size.  How I feel when I walk out the door with tell me if I am bringing her.  She rides nice and I could save myself a lot of time just getting one that fits her mouth.  Figure with a muzzle we might be able to bring her in with the small dogs during TV time at night?   Going to be hot and humid the first part of this week so I will most likely spend a lot of time indoors.  I do have to get my blood drawn this week Wednesday or Thursday morning.  Just want to get it over with and hate not having coffee in the morning until the blood is drawn.

If I do not post every day it simply means I am very busy with the dogs and all is well.  Guess no news is good news in this case.  I do have to admit I think I am in a very happy state of life right now.  I hope it lasts.

Friday, June 13, 2014

June 13, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Spent the week taking care of Rose from her Monday spay. 
Last night we took Rose and Casper with us to Stonefly bar and grill for supper.  They were perfect angels and sat and watched us eat, no begging or crying. 
This morning Rose licked her stitches off her leg so I have spent the entire day making sure she does not lick and keeps her cone on.
Will take the two dogs to my parents house on Sunday for Father's Day.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

June 11, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Rose got spayed on Monday and all went well.  Picked her up at 5 PM and she slept the rest of the night near me.  I slept on the floor that night with her in the bedroom.  She snuggled next to me all night.

Today I went grocery shopping and returned a cone / collar the vet gave us for the dog since it cost $15 and we are not using it due to having many and her not licking with me keeping an eye on her.  Figure the rescue could use the money since they are paying for most of this with the dogs still.

Rained all day today and I just did things around the house making sure Rose did not lick her wound.

Life is good.  Next week I do have to go in for my 6 month blood draw.  Last year at this time I had Shingles.  Remember well how horrible it was.

Monday, June 9, 2014

June 9, 2014 Monday Afternoon

It really has been a very busy week. 
The two rescue dogs, Rose and Casper, are doing great.  Casper is integrated with the other dogs.  Rose I just can not take the chance yet.  Today she is at the vet getting spayed.  She has gained 5.5 lbs since we got her a little over two weeks ago.  Between taking care of the two rescues and my three dogs it has been a very fast week. I have no clue where the week went, but I did have fun.  I really am a happy guy. 
Last Friday Wisconsin over turned its amendment on gay marriage, making Tony and my marriage legal in Wisconsin.  This decision came down hours into the Milwaukee Pridefest beginning.  We did spend Saturday afternoon and again that night down at Pridefest and had a great time. 
Sunday we were at the Pridefest parade in the afternoon and Locust street festival prior and after the parade.  Between the events and squeezing time in for the dogs we were very busy.
Waiting now for 5 PM to come so we can go get Rose from the vet.  Will then be a night on the floor laying next to her.
I must admit I am at a very happy time in my life.  I hope it continues.

Monday, June 2, 2014

June 2, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Had a great weekend with the dogs.  Every day we learn more about Rose and Casper.  Took them for their first walk on Saturday and they walked like perfect dogs.  Was pleasantly surprised.  Even walked Bo and Kali up the alley with Rose which is a step forward, with no issues.  We still have Rose separated from the other dogs.  Casper is on the bed with us and gets along with everyone.  Spent Saturday night watching the gay themed movie called Truth.  We both enjoyed the movie.

Sunday we took Tony's mom out for breakfast and then headed home to spend the day with the dogs.  Took Rose and Casper for another walk much longer than the prior day.  Stopped off at Stonefly bar for a drink with the dogs and they just sat there while we drank our drinks.  Spent Sunday night watching the movie Lone Survivor.  Good movie.

This morning Tony took Rose to work for the first time.  She spent the morning at the shop and Tony said she was OK.  She did cry when he was not in her sight but it was the first day.  Thought it best to have her come home at 1 PM and she was happy to be home. 

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

May 28, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Casper slept on the bed with everyone last night.  He slept in my arms all night.  Rose sleeps in a crate next to the bed because I still do not trust her with my other dogs.  The house is still separated and we still sit on opposite sides of the room at night with two sets of dogs.
Good news.  My tenant gave 30 days notice today.  Of course her reason was not a happy one.  She says her kid got lead poison  from our water.  Not much I can do.  Hundred year old house and I am not changing the pipes.  I doubt that it is true and I am just happy to hear she will be gone by July 1.  Not cooking tonight and going out for hamburgers.  I was home all day with the dogs and I need a drink and at least an hour away from the house for my own sanity. 

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

May 27, 2014 Tuesday Morning

I could not be more happy with how the weekend went.  Spent most of the weekend at home with our three dogs and the two new rescue dogs.  We have the house sectioned off with fencing and gates so that the two Pitbulls are always a fence or two away from my three small dogs.  Friday night we went to a party for an hour or so and left them in their crates for the first time.  Rose cries a lot but they are safe.  Friday night sleeping went better than the night before and I only let them out twice during the night and they settled back down in their bedroom cages with no problems.

Saturday morning we were up by 5 AM.  I have a feeling life is going to start this early for a while.  We spent all day with the dogs getting to know them.  They both are very sweet dogs.  Spent most of the day outside on the deck with them or in the living room watching TV.  One of us sitting on one side of the room with our three dogs, the other sitting on the other side of the fence with the two new dogs.  I also spent a lot of time working on their Facebook page named:   Rose and Casper.

Sunday came and went so fast I don't even remember what we did.  Juggling the dogs around the house and learning new things about them all day has been such a pleasure.  How someone could starve these two dogs is beyond my thinking.  Their ears are like dried leather from being frost bitten in the cold.  They both listen and already know their new names.  We even learned Casper can 'shake paw'.   Rose is going to be more difficult but not hopeless. 

Monday we introduced Casper to the three dogs with no problems.  By this day I could see Casper does not have a mean bone in his body and has been beat down so badly by people and his mother that he would take any abuse and still wag his tail.  So sad.  Off and on during the day I would be on one side of the fence with our three dogs and Casper and Tony on the other with Rose.  Eventually Rose wants her baby back on her side of the fence.  Spent the night watching the HBO movie The Normal Heart.  I cry when I think of all the talented people we lost.  An entire generation.  I recommend finding this movie and watching it.  Everyone involved deserves and award.

Today I am with the dogs alone while Tony is at work.  No problems and going to be a fun day getting to know the dogs and doing things around the house.  I still think we made the right decision and things are going to in time work out. 

Friday, May 23, 2014

May 23, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Yesterday morning we drove down to Waukegan Illinois and picked up Rose and Casper.  The drive home went pretty good.  Tony took the day off and helped the rest of the day with getting the dogs adjusted to the house and keeping our three dogs separated from them until we know them better.  I must be nuts for taking this on.  Had some challenges during the day like Casper peeing in the house, which has only happened now that once.  Rose has domination and aggression issues that will need to be addressed.  We spent over 2 hours at the vet with the dogs yesterday afternoon and walked out with antibiotics, shampoo, and a date for Rose to get spayed.  It needs to happen sooner rather than later before she get pregnant from Casper.  Hopefully it will make her less dominant also.  Ordered some lasagna for supper and spent the night watching TV, me on one side of the fence with Kali, Bo, and Vito,   Tony on the other with Casper and Rose.  The night went as smooth as a first night can go.  I did let them out at 1 AM to have them pee only to have her poop a bit later after we brought her back in.  Will have to let them pee and poop from this point forward if we let them out at 1 AM.  Rose is 33 lbs, Casper is 36.1 lbs.  Both horribly under weight. 

This morning we were up by 5 AM.  Tony went to work and I have worked on getting the house in better shape for the dogs and less stress for me.  I started a Facebook page called Rose and Casper if you would like to follow their progress.  Did not have lunch today with the guys.  One is having a get together tonight and thought it best to just spend the day with the dogs an go tonight for an hour to see the guys rather than lunch.  The dogs have been good for the most part.  I am starting to wonder if I bit off more than I can chew.  I am just happy they are not trying in any way to get to my three small dogs on the other side of fences and gates.   No plans this weekend.  Will just hang with the dogs. 

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

May 21, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Yesterday morning I saw a post on Facebook from a Rescue about two Pitbull dogs that they rescued that someone had apparently starved almost to death.  Here is the picture of them:
Yah, pretty sad.  So I posted that I would be interested in finding out more about these dogs and maybe even adopt them.  One thing has led to another and tonight a Rescue person is coming to our house to see if our home is OK for the two dogs.   We will then drive an hour south tomorrow to Waukegan Illinois and see the two dogs.   We plan on bringing Bo with us and if they all get along as planned they will all be coming home with us.  Yah, I am nuts.  Tony and I spent last night talking about this and I am so surprised he is on board with this.  When I showed him the pictures of the dogs and asked if we could take one, his reply was 'why would we take just one, we will take both of them'.  This is why I love my Tony and we have been together for over 25 years.  I honestly thought he was my 'out' if it was not right to have them.  So tomorrow at this time if all goes right we will have 5 dogs again.  The dogs will need a lot of care and medical attention.  Hopefully the rescue will help a bit but we are prepared if they do not.  The brown dog is going to be named Rose (rather than Rouge) and she is 3 years old.  He son is 2 years old and named Cripto.  Not sure if we will keep that name or change it.  Apparently they don't answer to their names so it is OK to change them.   I am a bit scared and wondering if I bit off more than I can chew on this one.  Much less I was looking forward to somewhat of a break or a vacation.  When we talked last night we talked about the fact how we both are getting older and if we were to ever do something this big now would be most likely the last time.  I am excited.  I feel like a parent waiting to pick up their newly adopted kid.  On  sad note, I did find out the dog we found over 10 years ago named Missy that we gave to our pharmacist, died a couple days after Stella died.  What is weird about this is the reason we gave her the Pomeranian named Missy was because we found Stella and the dog was too fragile to have and we had just found her and she was not settled in much anyway.  Weird how they both died around the same time and the tie they had.  Life is very interesting.  Will spent the night watching TV after the rescue visit and I also call the lady we are meeting tomorrow.  Since it is an hour away a different rescue is checking us out tonight.  Not afraid in any way.  My house is puppy safe.  

Monday, May 19, 2014

May 19, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Tony's sister picked up their three dogs a little before noon on Friday.  Was happy and sad at the same time to see them leave.  Met the guys for lunch a little late but had a great lunch as usual.  Spent the afternoon on my Lawlessmilwaukeecouple Facebook page and downloading more picture and photo shopping us into them.  Also have to come up with dialogue which is sometimes hard to come up with and thankfully current stories help with that.  Spent Friday night watching TV and went to bed a little disappointed because we didn't go to a neighborhood fund raiser for a fire victim that I wanted to go to and we just 'blew off'.   Went to bed around 10 PM.

Saturday we left the house around 10 AM to go to a couple rummage sales in the neighborhood at a bar and high school.  After the sales we picked up Bo and went to a car show on the west side of Milwaukee.  Bo was so good and a lady even came up to Tony and I and let us know 'what a well behaved little boy we have'.  So nice for a parent to hear this even if it is our dog.  Got home a little later in the afternoon and went out to eat at neighborhood restaurant for supper.  Spent way too much money and was shocked by the total bill to be honest.  We each had one double drink and they came to $24.  That is $12 a drink?   I can buy a bottle of Vodka for $24.  Supper was good and brought home my ribs for Sundays supper.  Spent Saturday night catching up on the DVR recordings. 

Sunday I made breakfast and we spent the morning doing things around the house outside.  Around noon, after I walked Vito up the alley for a while, we took Bo with us for a long walk around the neighborhood.  Stopped off for a coffee and smoothie at the local coffee shop and then walked to a couple rummage sales.  Had a nice walk.  Tony would rather walk the neighborhood than the river trails so I guess I will have to save river trail walks for during the week.  Bo was once again so good and is becoming a very good dog with us when we take him places.  Made left overs for supper and spent the night watching the Billboard Music awards.

This morning we were up by 5 AM so I could drop Tony off at his eye doctor by 6:45 AM on the other side of town to cataract surgery.   Lots of construction and way too early for me in the morning.  I was not happy and we decided Tony would take a taxi home.  I was never going to find the place with all the construction and detours and frankly lost it for a while totally over whelmed.  The desk nurse tried giving me directions but I can not follow from step one to step two to step three, without forgetting step one.  I have no short term memory anymore.  It is like when someone tells me their name.  I turn my head and the name is gone.  I swear it is the HIV meds.  Anyway, best for him to take a taxi home and he did.   Surgery went good and he was home by 10AM.  Taxi cost $33, which I though was very high.  Oh well.  Spent the day doing things around the house looking busy so Tony doesn't think I do nothing all day, lol.   Thankfully I have a lot to do on Monday's.  We did take a 2 hour nap in the afternoon.  Making spaghetti for supper with salads.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars final.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

May 14, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Been busy taking care of the 6 dogs that I find myself with daily.  The pug puppy is doing great and she only had one accident in the house yesterday.  Yesterday I stayed home and with the dogs all day. 

Today I did go get my monthly HIV meds and food from the pantry.  Spent the rest of the day playing with all the dogs.  They really get along great.

Short post since I have a puppy on my lap and hard to type.

Monday, May 12, 2014

May 12, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Stayed home Friday night with the dogs.  The second night did go much better than the first and we did sleep pretty good.

Saturday we were up by 5 AM.   There just was no going back to bed after letting the puppy out.  Spent the morning with the dogs.  Around noon we went to Burlington Coat Factory to look for a Summer jacket for me.  Not having any luck finding one I like.  Not very many to choose from even at the store today.  Did end up buying two just because they were on clearance and at this point 'good enough'.   Came home and spent the rest of the day with the six dogs.  They are really happy and no problems at all.  The puppy is making it outside 3 out of 4 times.  With that said the pup pees a lot so I have cleaned up a spot or two, or three.  I hope the sister in law gives us a gift certificate for floor cleaning.  At the last minute we decided to go to the play West Side Story at a high school down the street.  Was the best $10 we have spent in a long time.  Great performance by these high school kids.  Damn if they couldn't sing.  Was very impressed and glad we went.  Found out later from the tenant the one dog barked the entire time we were gone.  Went to be around 11 PM which was good because the dogs slept all night until 5 AM Sunday morning.

Sunday we were up by 5 AM and did not go back to bed.  Sucks to have the large Sunday paper read by 8 AM.   Went out for breakfast at George Webb's and then went to Walgreen's to buy some stuff.  After a couple hours at home we went to a couple stores on the way to drop off flowers at Tony's mom's house.  Bought a vacuum at Kmart.  Ours is 2 years old and trust me we got our money out of it.  Dropped off the flowers at the moms and came home.  Tony put the vacuum together and it did not work.  Wouldn't even go on when plugged in.  Spent the night watching TV and went to bed around 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 5 AM.  Around 10 AM I drove to Kmart to exchange the vacuum.  Stopped off at Wendy's on my way home for chili for lunch.  Spent the rest of the day with the dogs and watching the storms roll in every few hours.  Making salads and TV dinners for supper and will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle.  Better go find the puppy............

Friday, May 9, 2014

May 9, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Yesterday afternoon around 3 PM Tony's sister came and dropped off her three dogs.  One is a long hair Daschound, one is a 1 old Pug and one is an 8 week old, not trained Pug.  Here they were after and hour:
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This of course on top of our three dogs.  Of course last night we did not get a good night's sleep.  The puppy slept in a crate next to the bed.  The five others slept on the bed.  The two new dogs did not sleep well and kept us up most of the night.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Actually I was up many times during the night and twice to let the dogs outside.  The puppy is doing good and if I get her outside on the hour she pees outside rather than on the pad I have placed out for her.  She has made two mistakes.  Tony picked me up and we had a nice lunch with the guys.  Spent the afternoon with the dogs, taking an hour nap on the couch with all six dogs.  No plans this weekend and we will most likely be home with the dogs.  Even decided not to go to my mom and thankfully she understands why  .... six dogs.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

May 7, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Yesterday was not a pleasant day weather wise in Milwaukee.  The lake makes us much colder and I saw on the news that Milwaukee was the coldest in the 48 continuous states.  YUCK!   I did manage to get outside in the morning and weed and feed the front lawn.  I also went down to the trails with some fencing and wire and used it to cover a drain cover that is broken and I am afraid my or someone else's dog will fall down in the drain / hole.  I should have taken a picture of my work and will take my camera on the next walk to see if it is still there or if someone destroyed it.  Took a nice nap in the afternoon before Tony came home and woke me up.  Not sure what he came home for but I did then get up and start doing things around the house.  Made spaghetti for supper and spent the night watching TV.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Went grocery shopping around 11 AM in between the rain and hail.  It is not nice outside again today and only about 40 degrees and damp.  Here is a video of this mornings hail storm:
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Going out for cheap hamburgers tonight.  Will them come home and spend the night watching TV.  Tomorrow Tony's sister is dropping off her 3 dogs for us to take care of for 10 days as they go on vacation.  I will have 6 dogs to take care of, one being a puppy, not potty trained yet.  I will post pictures of the dogs.

Monday, May 5, 2014

May 5, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we stayed home and watched TV.  Did the lovin thing before going to sleep at 10:30 PM.

Saturday late morning we went to Southridge Mall to do some clothes shopping.  Was looking for a Spring or Summer jacket and some white shirts  ... all on sale of course.  I do like the clearance racks best.  After a couple hours in the mall Tony was ready to go home.  Only found one white shirt at the 'right' price under $15 on sale.  No jackets I likes in any of the stores.  Will have to wear last years which I am not so found of this year.  Went out to eat at George Webb's for supper.  Spent the night watching the movie Your Next.  Was a good horror movie.  Went to bed again around 10 PM for some lovin and then to sleep.

Sunday morning we took Tony's mom out for breakfast.  Stopped off at Menard's on the way home to return some items from the last deck project.   Talked Tony into a nice long walk along the river trails with Bo later in the afternoon.  Had a nice walk.  Had someone take a picture of us:

Made some soup and ham sandwiches for supper.  Spent the night watching The Good Wife and then turned off the TV and went to sleep.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the early morning reading the newspaper.  Finally ventured outside by late morning even though it is only 40 degrees here in Milwaukee.  It is suppose to get warm by the end of the week.  Summer like temperatures finally.  Spent the afternoon doing things around the house and cleaning a bit.  Making some salads and a pizza for supper.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before going to bed.

Friday, May 2, 2014

May 2, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Not sure where this week went.  The weather here in Milwaukee has been horrible.  In the 40s and either cold and damp or out right raining.  Did some work outside when I could but really spent the last few days indoors doing things around the house.   A nap each afternoon ate up a couple hours of each afternoon.

Had lunch with the guys today.  We have not had lunch for the past couple weeks due to illness of one or another of the guys.  Was nice to get together today for laughs and my birthday.  I bought lunch.

No plans this weekend.  It is finally suppose to get to 60 by Sunday and be sunny with no rain.  Hopefully we will get outside and take Bo for a walk at least once this weekend.

Been also busy working on my Facebook page Lawlessmilwaukeecouple.  Takes more time than most realize to make pictures and come up with a story for each picture and each day.  If your on Facebook check it out.  I am having fun with the page.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

April 29, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

Saturday afternoon we saw psychic John Edwards.  There were about 300 people.  Was interesting but I liked Long Island Medium Theresa Caputo better.  Got home and ordered some Jimmy John's subs for supper since we were to have a light supper due to our Monday morning colonoscopies.

Sunday we spent the day eating Jell-O and soup chicken broth.  Went to Jo Ann Fabric in the afternoon to buy some material to hang over the deck roof I made to block the sun.  The clerk thought Tony and I made a cute couple and after I told her we just recently got married she looked at me and said 'I can see he really loves you'.  Thought that was sweet.  Came home and at 4 PM we both started drinking the prep solution for the colonoscopy.  Got what we had to drink done in the two hours and was one the toilet an hour after beginning to drink the solution.  Watched TV in bed and spent the night rolling around waiting for 2:30 AM to come so we could both start drinking the solution again to clean out our bodies.

Monday morning we got up by 3 AM and started drinking the colonoscopy solution.  Showered and left the house at 7 AM for our colonoscopies.  They took me in one room and Tony in another.  At 8:35 AM the nurse came and got me and took me to the room for the procedure.  The last thing I remember was the nurse telling me to lay on my side.  Next thing I was in my room and soon I was in Tony's room.  This is all a blur.   Got home by 11 AM and spent the rest of the day napping and watching TV.  Went to sleep early Monday night after watching Dancing With The Stars.  Funny how the mind works when under for the procedure.  Tony and I spent the night talking about what we did and did not remember.  Here is a run down of what we remember:
Tony and I spent last night comparing what we remember about the colonoscopy. Here is what we remember:

My memory after the colonoscopy returns when I am already in Tony's room. Tony had his procedure after mine so I was a bit more awake? I don't honestly remember walking to Tony's room. What is weird is even though my memory begins in Tony's room I do vaguely remember that I had graham crackers in my room. I remember thinking 'cool, graham crackers' since I do love them. What is funny is I don't remember what I drank with the crackers. Coffee? Water? What the cup looked like? Nothing. I assume I had coffee. Tony has no member of his coffee or crackers. I remember seeing him with crackers but have no memory of what he was drinking. Why would I remember the crackers and not the drink?

We both wondered how the employee knew to come get us and get McDonald's food for us. I checked my phone log on my cell phone 'to recall' that I called Tony's shop at 10:12 AM to have an employee come pick us up. I have no memory of telling him to bring coffee and McDonald's which he did bring because I guess I told him to.

We both wonder how we got dressed and have no memory of it. I somehow managed to put underwear, long johns, sweats, socks, and two shirts on without remembering. Funny thing is I always put my socks on after my long johns so I can put the socks over them so the long johns don't bunch up when I put the sweat pants on. My socks were not that way. Did I dress myself or did someone help me?

Scariest part is Tony drove our car home, I was the passenger, while the employee followed us in his car. Of course we were not suppose to drive home. I do remember saying 'we should stop at Home Depot' as we passed the store but remember nothing else about the ride home. Tony should not have drove home because he also does not remember much about doing it. As we talked about this drive home I honestly thought at first I had drove the car home. So scary.

I lastly last night mentioned to Tony as we were talking about this that one employee was not at the shop when I called. I remember telling Tony this at least four times during the day and when I mentioned it last night Tony did not remember me ever telling him. Too funny.

I had two polyps. Tony had six. I have to have another in six years. Tony will need another in 3 years.
 
Found out today from Tony's employee that I did indeed drive home after the colonoscopy.  Scary because I do not remember and Tony swears he drove home.  
 
This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.   Did four loads of laundry during the course of the day.  It rained all day today and looks like this week it will rain every day.  Went to Home Depot and bought some stuff I needed for the deck.  Worked on the fabric overhang.  Spent the afternoon watching TV and listening to the rain fall.  Making salads and sweet and sour chicken for supper tonight.  Will spend the night watching TV and most likely go to bed early due to the rain and damp weather.   

Thursday, April 24, 2014

April 24, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Been working on a roof or covering over the side deck of the house.  I will hopefully get a picture posted soon once I get them off my camera.  My body sure feels the pain after working hard outside  like I have been. 

Yesterday was my birthday.  Had a nice day. I turned 53 years old.  Where do the years go.  I spent the day working on the deck roof and got half the roof panel up before calling it a day.  Took a shower and soon Tony came home early from work. We went out to eat at a nice steak restaurant.  I had a fillet, Tony had prime rib.  Both were good but I was glad I got the steak.  Was an expensive dinner and thankfully we don't do this often.  Came home and ate some cake and watched TV before going to bed for a little lovin and then to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the three dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Still missing Stella as I feed the dogs.  Spent all day today finishing the roof above the side deck. Had to go to the hardware store at one point to get more washers for the screws.  Finished and got the furniture set put looking nice.  I actually looks like I added a room off the side of the house.  Just making some salads and pizza for supper tonight since my body aches and I just took a pain pill.  Will then spend the night watching TV most likely going to bed early.  I do enjoy working on projects but can not believe how much my body aches afterwards.  Must be old age.  Not liking the pain but it feels good to know it is because of hard work and living life.

Monday, April 21, 2014

April 21, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Saturday we spent the day doing things around the house, well, I did, Tony pretty much laid around watching TV.  Oh well, he does work all week.  Around 4 PM we went down the street to a bar party for the owner that died last week.  This was the after the funeral party.  Had a couple drinks and ate a little food before heading home.  Spent the night watching TV and doing the lovin thing before going to sleep.

Sunday we were up by 6 AM.  Had to shower and leave the house by 8:30 AM for a 9 AM Easter breakfast.  Sad half the people at the family table we don't really like.   (Tony's family)  Did I say that?   Had a nice 'all you can eat' breakfast and soon headed home.  Stopped at Walgreens to pick up some prescriptions, our prep kits for next Monday's colonoscopy included.  I am not looking forward to next Sunday and then Monday morning.  Stopped also to get lottery tickets.  After we were home for a while I talked Tony into going for a walk along the river trails with Bo.  Ended up sitting under the North avenue bridge watching the Milwaukee Fire and Rescue do some training in the river.  As we were watching a reporter came up to us and asked if he could interview us on camera.  Here is the final piece that aired Sunday night.  We are on the feed about 45 minutes in:
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It really is amazing how the cameras just seem to find us.  We have been in the news and print so often in the past 25 years.  Sat and watched for about an hour and then came home.  Bo was so good the entire time and sat on my lap.   Made hamburgers for supper and spent the night watching a movie on ABC.  Went to bed after the movie.
 
This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony soon left for work and I again reminded him to come home this morning to take me to Menard's to buy the roofing panels I need for the side deck.  They are on sale so I figure I might as well get them even though I have a lot of prep work to do before they are ready to be installed or put up.  I felt safer having Tony drive the truck and the panels hanging out 4 feet.  Got them all home OK considering they are 12 feet long.  Rain started around 1 PM so I figured it was a good time to take a nap.   Making a Hormel meatloaf and potatoes for supper tonight.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before going to sleep.  It did get to 70 today but the rain is bringing a cool front that will drop us back to normal highs of 50s for the next few days.  I love 50s for working outside in the yard and hope I can get out there the next two days.

Friday, April 18, 2014

April 18, 2014 Friday Afternoon

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Did turn to feed Stella and caught myself.  Did tear up a bit.  Actually had a hard night last night.  Tony soon left for work and I started reading the morning newspapers.  I wanted to get outside and start working again and was outside by about 9:30 AM.  Went to the hardware store and got some wood I need for the current project.  I am keeping myself busy so I don't think of Stella.  I noticed by the size of my posts this past week how I don't write much because I am busy doing things.  I guess it is good to keep busy.  If I don't I start to cry.  I miss Stella so much.  I am sure the sad music I am playing right now isn't helping.  Went and had lunch with the guys.  Had a nice lunch.  Two of the guys were sick again this week.  Spent the afternoon working outside in the 50 degree weather.  I did notice my sun rash came back and I had to start putting cream on my forehead again.  I swear it is from the Epzicom that I get this sun rash.  Have to make sure I put sun screen on and wear a hat when I am in the sun.  Made a couple salads for supper and will most likely throw a pot pie in the microwave for Tony for supper tonight.  Will stay home tonight and watch TV.  Tomorrow we have a funeral of a local bar owner to go to and will then go to the bar for a drink or two after the funeral.  Sunday we will have a breakfast out with Tony's mom and sister at a restaurant on the south side of Milwaukee for Easter. 

I still am beating myself up about putting Stella down a week and a half ago.  I am getting to the point where I now can say she would be most likely having some problems and it might not be best for her any more.  Of course I have no way of knowing and I am just trying to rationalize my putting her down a week and a half a go.  I do keep telling myself that even if I put her down a bit too early ... I did it out of love and didn't want her in any pain.  That can not be wrong?  I also would have prolonged my pain and would have not let her do much these last two weeks so she wouldn't get hurt or over do herself.  So her quality of life would not have been what it should be also.  I just hurt so much inside and cry cry cry wishing I could hold her and have her back.  I know this is all normal.  Tony is already to the point where he doesn't want to see me cry so when I do break down I have to leave the room and try to pull myself together.   At night I just stare are the ceiling thinking about her and tears run down my face.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

April 17, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Spent most of yesterday doing things around the house.  Did leave once to go get my monthly HIV meds and food from the pantry.  Made a colonoscopy appointment for Tony and myself.  Made them the same day back to back so we can be in misery the day before together.  We both need one and am glad I finally broke down and made the appointment.  Was surprised they got us in so soon, a week form next Monday morning.  Last night we saw Theresa Caputo / Long Island Medium.  She was at the Riverside theater with about 2000 people.  She did come close to us but we did not get a reading.  I honestly was hoping for a reading as silly as that sounds.  I talked to my dead relatives for weeks telling them to come forward.  Actually had a little break down when we got home since I was praying for a message from Stella.  Of course Tony said 'you already got your message', which is true.  I also soon snapped out of it when I thought about all the hurt and pain that was in the theater and how fortunate I am to have the little pain I have.  Some people have really had a bad life and things happening to them.   Went to bed around 11 PM, crying a bit.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  First morning of not reaching for Stella's bowl.  Spent the morning and early afternoon working outside in the yard.  It got to 50 degrees today in Milwaukee.  This afternoon I took Bo for a nice long walk along the river trails so we could see all the flooding from the recent rain.  The river is very high.  Just got back from Pick N Save to buy a few items.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV with the dogs.  I am so glad it finally looks like Spring is coming.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

April 15, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

The crematory called a little after I posted yesterday and said Stella's ashes were ready to pick up.  Tony and I went there and got her by noon.   They put the ashes in the urn I had picked out.  Came home and spent a little time picking out the right picture for on the front of the urn and putting the name plaque I made for the front also.  Put her collar and hair sample in the top compartment.  I did open the bottom to make sure there were ashes.  There are.  Spent the afternoon doing things around the house.  Made salads and a couple TV dinners for supper.  Spent the night watching Dancing With The Stars before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Still cried this morning when feeding the dogs.  Seems to be the time that still gets to me.  Spent the day just doing things around the house.  Left a message with a doctors office that does colonoscopies.  Need to set one up for Tony and I and would like them back to back so we can do the prep the same day.  Misery is better with company I figure.  It never even got above 32 degrees today in Milwaukee.  Called in my monthly HIV meds to be picked up Thursday.  I did leave the house twice when I read of dogs loose in the neighborhood on a neighborhood website.  Didn't find either dog but later read they are safe.  Went to Walgreen's and picked up a prescription on one of the dog journeys.  Took a nice two hour nap with the dogs.  Nap time is different without Stella.  So much room on the bed and she was helpful as a border for Vito to not fall off the bed, being blind and all.  Making spaghetti and salads for supper tonight.  Will be an early night to bed.  Cold, damp, cloudy, day in Milwaukee.  Where is Spring?

Monday, April 14, 2014

April 14, 2014 Monday Morning

Friday night we went out for a cod fish fry at the restaurant we went to last Friday.  The fish fry was not as good as the week prior but will give them another try sometime in the future.  Came home and watched a little TV before going to the bedroom for a round of lovin and then went to sleep.  Still got up a couple times and walked the house hoping for a sign from Stella.  When Bo came up on the bed tonight all he wanted to do was play.  I have not seen him like this since his best friend Stella died.  I took note and even said 'my Bo is back'.   It was a noticeable change.

Saturday morning we were up by 7 AM.   Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Breakfast still makes me cry as I only make three of four dog bowls up with food.  Tony went to work for an hour around 10 AM.   When he got home I got him in the shower so we could do some things I had in mind in the afternoon.  Around noon we left the house to go to Menard's to price and plan my next outside project.  On the way to Menard's we stopped off at the Milwaukee Humane Society to look at dogs.  Tony did not want to.  I was no way going to get a dog, but was happy I was even considering it and opening my heart again.  Saw a deaf Pitbull and spent some time with it.  Unfortunately it is only 6 months old and not trained.  I could handle a deaf Pitbull if it was trained but I have no clue how to train a deaf Pitbull and would fail the dog.  Tony cried the entire time we were in the Humane Society looking at the dogs.  I actually smiled.   You know I miss Stella with all my heart and her death is tearing me apart.  With that said, I am so amazed how quickly I am to even consider another dog.  I guess I just figure we have the room and love and there are so many dogs that need a good home.  Stella gave us so much happiness and we need that back in the house.  We will get a dog or find one after May when we babysit Tony's sisters two dogs.  Can't bring one into the house before then.  I am not looking to replace Stella.  I am simply opening our home since we have the love and room.  Left and went to Menard's and bought some items and did some planning and pricing.  Came home and spent the later half of the afternoon with the dogs.   Around 4 PM a friend of ours came over with a picture he made of Stella.  After we fed the dogs we went out to eat and the same friend joined us.  Had a nice supper, good conversation, and three drinks.  I can't remember the last time I had three drinks.  As we went to leave it was hailing outside nickel size hail.  Ran to our car and drove the two blocks home.  Spent the rest of the night watching TV.  Went to bed around 9 PM and did another round of lovin and then went to sleep.

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM again.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Made breakfast.  We went to Pick N Save around noon to get lottery tickets an some ham and rolls for supper.  Came home and soon Tony wanted a nap.  I think he really wanted more lovin.  Did the lovin thing and took an hour nap.  Made ham and rolls for supper and spent the night watching Good Wife and Mentalist before going to sleep.  Fell asleep during Mentalist and don't even know how it ended.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work around 7:30 AM.  Just stopped raining.  Rained all night.  It is only 34 degrees outside and not getting above 40 all week, or not much above. 

Had a major breakdown this morning crying over Stella.  I read the comments and appreciate them.  You are right, but it is still hard.  I do keep beating myself up thinking I wish I was stronger so I didn't put her down last week.   I wish I would have kept her alive and monitored the situation, giving her more time.  I know even as I type that, that more time could be even now, next week, but, that would have been more time at this point.  The fact she could still be by my feet right now kills me if it were not for our decision to put her down last Monday.  Of course how long and what would have happened next could have been heart breaking also.  So, I go back and forth.  Beat myself up one minute wishing I was stronger, knowing I did the best thing the next moment.  I guess I just miss her so much.  I am hoping they call and say we can pick up her ashes today.  Would be nice to get that over with and have her back home.  I will just do things around the house today.   To cold and damp to do anything outside.  Good day to clean if I get the energy.