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Thursday, April 24, 2014

April 24, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Been working on a roof or covering over the side deck of the house.  I will hopefully get a picture posted soon once I get them off my camera.  My body sure feels the pain after working hard outside  like I have been. 

Yesterday was my birthday.  Had a nice day. I turned 53 years old.  Where do the years go.  I spent the day working on the deck roof and got half the roof panel up before calling it a day.  Took a shower and soon Tony came home early from work. We went out to eat at a nice steak restaurant.  I had a fillet, Tony had prime rib.  Both were good but I was glad I got the steak.  Was an expensive dinner and thankfully we don't do this often.  Came home and ate some cake and watched TV before going to bed for a little lovin and then to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the three dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Still missing Stella as I feed the dogs.  Spent all day today finishing the roof above the side deck. Had to go to the hardware store at one point to get more washers for the screws.  Finished and got the furniture set put looking nice.  I actually looks like I added a room off the side of the house.  Just making some salads and pizza for supper tonight since my body aches and I just took a pain pill.  Will then spend the night watching TV most likely going to bed early.  I do enjoy working on projects but can not believe how much my body aches afterwards.  Must be old age.  Not liking the pain but it feels good to know it is because of hard work and living life.

Monday, April 21, 2014

April 21, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Saturday we spent the day doing things around the house, well, I did, Tony pretty much laid around watching TV.  Oh well, he does work all week.  Around 4 PM we went down the street to a bar party for the owner that died last week.  This was the after the funeral party.  Had a couple drinks and ate a little food before heading home.  Spent the night watching TV and doing the lovin thing before going to sleep.

Sunday we were up by 6 AM.  Had to shower and leave the house by 8:30 AM for a 9 AM Easter breakfast.  Sad half the people at the family table we don't really like.   (Tony's family)  Did I say that?   Had a nice 'all you can eat' breakfast and soon headed home.  Stopped at Walgreens to pick up some prescriptions, our prep kits for next Monday's colonoscopy included.  I am not looking forward to next Sunday and then Monday morning.  Stopped also to get lottery tickets.  After we were home for a while I talked Tony into going for a walk along the river trails with Bo.  Ended up sitting under the North avenue bridge watching the Milwaukee Fire and Rescue do some training in the river.  As we were watching a reporter came up to us and asked if he could interview us on camera.  Here is the final piece that aired Sunday night.  We are on the feed about 45 minutes in:
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It really is amazing how the cameras just seem to find us.  We have been in the news and print so often in the past 25 years.  Sat and watched for about an hour and then came home.  Bo was so good the entire time and sat on my lap.   Made hamburgers for supper and spent the night watching a movie on ABC.  Went to bed after the movie.
 
This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony soon left for work and I again reminded him to come home this morning to take me to Menard's to buy the roofing panels I need for the side deck.  They are on sale so I figure I might as well get them even though I have a lot of prep work to do before they are ready to be installed or put up.  I felt safer having Tony drive the truck and the panels hanging out 4 feet.  Got them all home OK considering they are 12 feet long.  Rain started around 1 PM so I figured it was a good time to take a nap.   Making a Hormel meatloaf and potatoes for supper tonight.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before going to sleep.  It did get to 70 today but the rain is bringing a cool front that will drop us back to normal highs of 50s for the next few days.  I love 50s for working outside in the yard and hope I can get out there the next two days.

Friday, April 18, 2014

April 18, 2014 Friday Afternoon

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Did turn to feed Stella and caught myself.  Did tear up a bit.  Actually had a hard night last night.  Tony soon left for work and I started reading the morning newspapers.  I wanted to get outside and start working again and was outside by about 9:30 AM.  Went to the hardware store and got some wood I need for the current project.  I am keeping myself busy so I don't think of Stella.  I noticed by the size of my posts this past week how I don't write much because I am busy doing things.  I guess it is good to keep busy.  If I don't I start to cry.  I miss Stella so much.  I am sure the sad music I am playing right now isn't helping.  Went and had lunch with the guys.  Had a nice lunch.  Two of the guys were sick again this week.  Spent the afternoon working outside in the 50 degree weather.  I did notice my sun rash came back and I had to start putting cream on my forehead again.  I swear it is from the Epzicom that I get this sun rash.  Have to make sure I put sun screen on and wear a hat when I am in the sun.  Made a couple salads for supper and will most likely throw a pot pie in the microwave for Tony for supper tonight.  Will stay home tonight and watch TV.  Tomorrow we have a funeral of a local bar owner to go to and will then go to the bar for a drink or two after the funeral.  Sunday we will have a breakfast out with Tony's mom and sister at a restaurant on the south side of Milwaukee for Easter. 

I still am beating myself up about putting Stella down a week and a half ago.  I am getting to the point where I now can say she would be most likely having some problems and it might not be best for her any more.  Of course I have no way of knowing and I am just trying to rationalize my putting her down a week and a half a go.  I do keep telling myself that even if I put her down a bit too early ... I did it out of love and didn't want her in any pain.  That can not be wrong?  I also would have prolonged my pain and would have not let her do much these last two weeks so she wouldn't get hurt or over do herself.  So her quality of life would not have been what it should be also.  I just hurt so much inside and cry cry cry wishing I could hold her and have her back.  I know this is all normal.  Tony is already to the point where he doesn't want to see me cry so when I do break down I have to leave the room and try to pull myself together.   At night I just stare are the ceiling thinking about her and tears run down my face.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

April 17, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Spent most of yesterday doing things around the house.  Did leave once to go get my monthly HIV meds and food from the pantry.  Made a colonoscopy appointment for Tony and myself.  Made them the same day back to back so we can be in misery the day before together.  We both need one and am glad I finally broke down and made the appointment.  Was surprised they got us in so soon, a week form next Monday morning.  Last night we saw Theresa Caputo / Long Island Medium.  She was at the Riverside theater with about 2000 people.  She did come close to us but we did not get a reading.  I honestly was hoping for a reading as silly as that sounds.  I talked to my dead relatives for weeks telling them to come forward.  Actually had a little break down when we got home since I was praying for a message from Stella.  Of course Tony said 'you already got your message', which is true.  I also soon snapped out of it when I thought about all the hurt and pain that was in the theater and how fortunate I am to have the little pain I have.  Some people have really had a bad life and things happening to them.   Went to bed around 11 PM, crying a bit.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  First morning of not reaching for Stella's bowl.  Spent the morning and early afternoon working outside in the yard.  It got to 50 degrees today in Milwaukee.  This afternoon I took Bo for a nice long walk along the river trails so we could see all the flooding from the recent rain.  The river is very high.  Just got back from Pick N Save to buy a few items.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV with the dogs.  I am so glad it finally looks like Spring is coming.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

April 15, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

The crematory called a little after I posted yesterday and said Stella's ashes were ready to pick up.  Tony and I went there and got her by noon.   They put the ashes in the urn I had picked out.  Came home and spent a little time picking out the right picture for on the front of the urn and putting the name plaque I made for the front also.  Put her collar and hair sample in the top compartment.  I did open the bottom to make sure there were ashes.  There are.  Spent the afternoon doing things around the house.  Made salads and a couple TV dinners for supper.  Spent the night watching Dancing With The Stars before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Still cried this morning when feeding the dogs.  Seems to be the time that still gets to me.  Spent the day just doing things around the house.  Left a message with a doctors office that does colonoscopies.  Need to set one up for Tony and I and would like them back to back so we can do the prep the same day.  Misery is better with company I figure.  It never even got above 32 degrees today in Milwaukee.  Called in my monthly HIV meds to be picked up Thursday.  I did leave the house twice when I read of dogs loose in the neighborhood on a neighborhood website.  Didn't find either dog but later read they are safe.  Went to Walgreen's and picked up a prescription on one of the dog journeys.  Took a nice two hour nap with the dogs.  Nap time is different without Stella.  So much room on the bed and she was helpful as a border for Vito to not fall off the bed, being blind and all.  Making spaghetti and salads for supper tonight.  Will be an early night to bed.  Cold, damp, cloudy, day in Milwaukee.  Where is Spring?

Monday, April 14, 2014

April 14, 2014 Monday Morning

Friday night we went out for a cod fish fry at the restaurant we went to last Friday.  The fish fry was not as good as the week prior but will give them another try sometime in the future.  Came home and watched a little TV before going to the bedroom for a round of lovin and then went to sleep.  Still got up a couple times and walked the house hoping for a sign from Stella.  When Bo came up on the bed tonight all he wanted to do was play.  I have not seen him like this since his best friend Stella died.  I took note and even said 'my Bo is back'.   It was a noticeable change.

Saturday morning we were up by 7 AM.   Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Breakfast still makes me cry as I only make three of four dog bowls up with food.  Tony went to work for an hour around 10 AM.   When he got home I got him in the shower so we could do some things I had in mind in the afternoon.  Around noon we left the house to go to Menard's to price and plan my next outside project.  On the way to Menard's we stopped off at the Milwaukee Humane Society to look at dogs.  Tony did not want to.  I was no way going to get a dog, but was happy I was even considering it and opening my heart again.  Saw a deaf Pitbull and spent some time with it.  Unfortunately it is only 6 months old and not trained.  I could handle a deaf Pitbull if it was trained but I have no clue how to train a deaf Pitbull and would fail the dog.  Tony cried the entire time we were in the Humane Society looking at the dogs.  I actually smiled.   You know I miss Stella with all my heart and her death is tearing me apart.  With that said, I am so amazed how quickly I am to even consider another dog.  I guess I just figure we have the room and love and there are so many dogs that need a good home.  Stella gave us so much happiness and we need that back in the house.  We will get a dog or find one after May when we babysit Tony's sisters two dogs.  Can't bring one into the house before then.  I am not looking to replace Stella.  I am simply opening our home since we have the love and room.  Left and went to Menard's and bought some items and did some planning and pricing.  Came home and spent the later half of the afternoon with the dogs.   Around 4 PM a friend of ours came over with a picture he made of Stella.  After we fed the dogs we went out to eat and the same friend joined us.  Had a nice supper, good conversation, and three drinks.  I can't remember the last time I had three drinks.  As we went to leave it was hailing outside nickel size hail.  Ran to our car and drove the two blocks home.  Spent the rest of the night watching TV.  Went to bed around 9 PM and did another round of lovin and then went to sleep.

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM again.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Made breakfast.  We went to Pick N Save around noon to get lottery tickets an some ham and rolls for supper.  Came home and soon Tony wanted a nap.  I think he really wanted more lovin.  Did the lovin thing and took an hour nap.  Made ham and rolls for supper and spent the night watching Good Wife and Mentalist before going to sleep.  Fell asleep during Mentalist and don't even know how it ended.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work around 7:30 AM.  Just stopped raining.  Rained all night.  It is only 34 degrees outside and not getting above 40 all week, or not much above. 

Had a major breakdown this morning crying over Stella.  I read the comments and appreciate them.  You are right, but it is still hard.  I do keep beating myself up thinking I wish I was stronger so I didn't put her down last week.   I wish I would have kept her alive and monitored the situation, giving her more time.  I know even as I type that, that more time could be even now, next week, but, that would have been more time at this point.  The fact she could still be by my feet right now kills me if it were not for our decision to put her down last Monday.  Of course how long and what would have happened next could have been heart breaking also.  So, I go back and forth.  Beat myself up one minute wishing I was stronger, knowing I did the best thing the next moment.  I guess I just miss her so much.  I am hoping they call and say we can pick up her ashes today.  Would be nice to get that over with and have her back home.  I will just do things around the house today.   To cold and damp to do anything outside.  Good day to clean if I get the energy.

Friday, April 11, 2014

April 11, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV.  Went to the bedroom at 9 PM and soon went to sleep.  Only got up a couple times during the night.   Once in tears.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Still makes me sad to feed the dogs and have one less bowl to fill.  First thing this morning I sent the flag company a stencil of the Pitbull I want on the flag that will fly in the front yard.  Also worked on the side deck canopy I am in the process of planning and making.  Hopefully this weekend I will go to Menard's to check out the building materials and see if what I have in mind is cost effective.  Tony picked me up for lunch and we went and had a nice lunch with the guys.  After lunch we went downtown to pick up the plaque of all the dogs for on the flag pole.  Turned out great.   Took Bo for a nice walk to the river and a block down and back up to the house.  Took some treats and started some training.  Bo also met two new dogs and he was OK with them.  Growled a bit but then was nice.  I have to socialize him.  Tony will be coming home soon and we are going to go out tonight for a fish fry.  Same place as last week.  Hopefully it will be just as good.   Tomorrow it is suppose to get to 70 degrees and then the storms come and next week looks like more in the 40s.  

It is the fourth day since euthanizing Stella.  I miss her dearly and am having second thoughts about why I put her down that day and just didn't wait a while.  I am sorry I saved us both from pain.   I should have been thinking more about her pain than mine and then you would still be here.  Of course your future was uncertain and no cures so sooner or later we would be back at this point.  I just hate the fact I made the decision on Monday knowing she could still be here now if it were not for that decision.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

April 10, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Spent last night watching Criminal Minds and CSI before going to bed.  Slept a bit better.  Was still up a few times but at least they were not filled with tears.  Bo still is taking Stella's death hard.  He wouldn't even sleep with us on the bed in the beginning and didn't come up on the bed until after midnight.  So he is feeling the pain.  Stella was his best friend from day one when he walked in the door. 

This morning I was up by 6 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  I didn't want to spend the day crying again so I thought it best to keep busy.  Since it got to 50 degrees today I did a lot of work outside and also filled the hot tub.  Figure if I am going to start a new project over the deck I better have the hot tub to soak in at night to ease the pain.  Went for a walk along the river trails today. Actually was a little strange.  I took Stella's collar and a lot of tissue.  It is about a 2 mile walk along the trails.  As I started my walk I was talking to myself like I often do and asked God, spirit guide, anyone, for a signal that I have done the right thing euthanizing Stella on Monday.  I then joked that I would probably miss the sign if I wasn't specific.  So I said, "let me see another dog like Stella on the walk".   I laughed knowing in five years of walking the trails I have never seen a Pitbull with the same marking and colors at Stella.   Honest to God on the way back home the final path I could not believe my eyes.  Up head was a couple walking a Pitbull about half the size of Stella with the same face markings and colors.  I started crying.  I then stopped the couple as they walked by and explained my story and tears.  WTF?   The dog was maybe 6 months old but had the same face color and markings.  A sign?  Why do we even doubt?   Heck, I asked for a specific sign and I got it and I still doubt.  Human nature?   It did throw me and I will have to process this.   Making salads and a Hormel pot roast for supper.  Will spend the night watching TV with the dogs. 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

April 9, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Last night after Tony got home from work and showered we went up the street to have some $2 tacos and a drink.  Came home and spent the rest of the night watching NCIS and NCIS LA.  Went to the bedroom at 9 PM and by 10 PM I was sleeping.  Woke up at 2 AM in tears.  Walked the house for a while.  Bo was up most of the night also.  He didn't even sleep all night on the bed.  I know he is processing his best friend not being here any more.  I guess as humans we at least know what happened.  I can see he is confused and wants his best friend back.  Tried to sleep a bit but was up most of the night after 2 AM.

This morning I was up and out of bed by 6 AM.  Fed the dogs.  Second day reaching for Stella's bowl only to remember she is no longer here.  I put her bowl away so it is just reflex.   Of course feeding the dogs made me break down in tears not having Stella here.  Spent the early morning going through pictures of Stella's almost 10 years with us.  Got on Walgreen's website and had a few made into 8 x 10's and one into a 11 x 14 for the bedroom.  Went grocery shopping around 11 AM.  Honestly my mind is mush.  I couldn't make any decisions and just threw stuff in the cart.  Came home and soon the pictures were ready to pick up so I want to Walgreen's to get them.  After I got home I decided to go for a walk and took Bo with me.  Took a nice long walk along the river trails with Bo.  Never took him before but think I might start.  Of course that means leaving 2 dogs home.   Ended up taking the other two dogs one by one up the alley.  Vito is blind so it is just a matter of letting him sniff for a while.  Making hamburgers and French fries with a salad for supper tonight.   Will most likely just spend the night watching TV with the three dogs.  Sure is different on the bed at night without the big Pitbull and only 3 small dogs.   Lots of room.  Would be happy to have less room and my baby back.  Ordered a small name plate for on the urn with Stella's name and dates.  Will most likely get her ashes later this week or early next week.   It got to 60 degrees in Milwaukee today.  We have not been this warm since last October.  Sure felt good.  Have to treat myself better.  This death of Stella has taken a toll on my health and with my HIV I have to stay strong and healthy.  I can just imagine what this week has done to my TCell count.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

April 8, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

I don't know where all the tears keep coming from.

Yesterday afternoon we did indeed take Stella to the vet for her 2:30 PM appointment.  The vet was surprised by the sink hole in her head and cheek and how fast this came on since she had just seen her a week earlier for the stroke she had on March 26th.  We talk about the fact that we have tried everything possible to clear her ears and they keep getting infections.  We clean them, medicate them and nothing changes.  Since we have hit the end of the road it would be just a matter of taking Stella home and waiting for her to get sicker and eventually have to be put down then.  So many things factor in including ones one sanity in making this decision.  Stella, being a Pitbull is so strong and by the time she would show us she has pain, it would most likely be too late and we would hate ourselves for waiting.   With her head caving in was she in pain?   Would she be in pain soon?   I did ask the vet to tell me point blank that what I am doing is OK.  She looked at me and said 'It is OK'.    So the vet took Stella into the back room to put a catheter in her and I laid out her blanket on the floor in the room.   Stella came running back in the room and right to me on the floor waiting for her.  Since we have unfortunately been through this five other times, I know what comes next and just to get it over with.  We have already said everything to Stella and prolonging this is just not an option.  The doctor started injecting the drugs into her and Stella jumped up for a second and I held her back down.   The entire time I kept saying over and over again 'I love you so much, thank you for being my baby, I am so sorry'.   Over and over.  I still say it now over and over crying.  She then rested her head on my shoulder like she did many many nights in bed.  It was over.  She then let out one last breath of air.  We wrapped her up and brought her home in the container we bought Sunday for her.  Showed the other three dogs at home her body.  Kali didn't seem to care, like she had seen this too many times before.  Vito and Bo just kept sniffing her.  I then cut off some hair to save and covered her up and put the lid back on the container.   Spent last night watching TV and crying.  Slept like crap.  Maybe and hour, then jump up and think of Stella and start crying, all night.  Bo is visibly upset and kept going up to the container and sniffing it.  He was up all night too and the four times I let him out I think they were to check on Stella in the container outside on the deck. 

This morning I started ordering the new flag for the flag pole out front with now 6 dogs on it.  Also had to order a new plaque with her pic and dates for on the pole.  I have done this for all 6 dogs now and thankfully the companies who have made this stuff for me has it all on file and just needs to add a dog each time to the flag or plaque.   Also ordered a copy of our marriage license which seems not very important now under the circumstances.   Tony and I then at 10 AM today took Stella to Pet Lawn Crematory to have her cremated and then will pick up her ashes in the new urn I bought there also.  They are also making a cast of her paw print which I thought was really nice.   Took a nice long nap with Kali, Vito and Bo this afternoon.   Going to be a quite night again tonight at home.   I miss my baby Stella and the second guessing and regrets today are chewing me up. 

Monday, April 7, 2014

April 7, 2014 Monday Morning

Today is going to be one of my worst days of my life. 

Saturday morning while Stella was eating I noticed her head / skull had a 'sink hole' type thing going one between her left eye and left ear.  We rushed her to the vet mid morning.  Vet looked at her and said to bring her back on Monday at 2:30 PM.   I spent the weekend looking on the Internet for what was happening to Stella.  Seems the tumor is eating away her cartilage of her skull.  From everything I read, there is little that can be done and the things that happen next are not pleasant for her or us.  She will soon loose her cognitive skills and bowels.  Then seizures and then coma.  Sunday morning we saw her cheek now had a 'sink hole' also so things are progressing fast.  Tony and I spent the weekend talking, giving Stella all the love we can, and planning for her demise today.

So, at 2:30 PM today Tony and I are taking Stella to the vet to be euthanized.  I have been crying all weekend and have to be strong.  I hate this part about dog ownership.  I just keep telling her how much I love her and how sorry I am that this is the end.  Watching the hours go by waiting for this afternoon has been horrible.  We will bring her body home to show the other dogs so they have closure.  Learned from past dogs this seems best or they just don't know what happened to their puppy friend.   Will then take her body tomorrow to get cremated so I have the ashes. 

So, today is going to suck.  I have to be strong.  I am going to have to find the strength to do what is right for my baby and I don't know where I will draw that from.  I love you Stella and I am so sorry I have to do this.

Friday, April 4, 2014

April 4, 2014 Friday Afternoon

The last two days have not been good weather days in Milwaukee.  Yesterday it barely was above freezing all day and today it is about 40 degrees.  I never left the house yesterday.  Both days it drizzled and rain on and off all day.  Spent most of yesterday working on my Lawlessmilwaukeecouple Facebook page.  Spent last night watching Grey's Anatomy and then doing the lovin thing before going to sleep. 

Today we took Vito to the vet to have his nails trimmed.  Picked up another weeks worth of antibiotic for Stella while we were there.  Stopped off at McDonald's for a couple hamburgers and came home.  No lunch with the guys today since half are sick.  I don't want to get sick like them so we decide to call off lunch this week.  Tony went back to work when we were done eating.  I took a nice two hour nap with the dogs.  It is not raining right now but it is windy and feels damp and raw outside.   Will most likely go to a new restaurant down the street for a beer battered fish fry. 

No plans this weekend.  I just want warm weather and tired of waiting for it.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

April 2, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

It has been cold in Milwaukee.  Much colder than normal.  The last two days we have gotten to 34 degrees for a high.   Today is much the same.  It should be in the 50s this time of year in Milwaukee.  The sun is out and you look outside and think it would be so much warmer.  Stella is doing much better.  She can walk on her own.  She only looses her balance when she shakes her head.   Been busy the last couple days making up future posts for the Facebook page Lawlessmilwaukeecouple that I started the day after we got married.  I am happy with how it is growing and catching on.  I try to promote the page with every post I make on Facebook.   Spent last night watching NCIS and NCIS LA before going to the bedroom.  Did a round of lovin and after an hour of TV I went to sleep.  Tony is sleeping minutes after the lovin.

This morning I was up by 6 AM with bowel problems.  Not happy lately with my bowels and will have to find out why I am bleeding.   I have to set up colonoscopies for Tony and myself.  We are both due and I have to stop putting off making the appointment for them.  I know the prep part is worse then the actual colonoscopy.   Making left over spaghetti for dinner tonight for Tony.  I will most likely just have a sandwich since I bought myself some chili when I went to Pick N Save this morning to do the weekly grocery shopping.   Grabbed a recent Shepard Express magazine to see us featured in the 2014 City Guide.  Our house is listed as a 'must see' destination.   Will spend the night watching TV with the dogs.    I want warm Summer air so bad.

Monday, March 31, 2014

March 31, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we spent the night watching TV from the DVR.  Went to the bed around 9 PM to watch the last of TV in bed with the dogs.  Ended up doing a round of lovin and then going to sleep.

Saturday morning we woke up around 6 AM.  Woke up on the same side of the bed and that lead to some hugs and then another round of lovin.  Soon got up and fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot and Stella her pills and ear drops.  Stella seemed a little better and was able to get off the bed with a little help down the stairs next to the bed.  When she shakes her head she still looses her balance but is walking much better just 4 days after having a stroke.  Tony went into work to sell some cars and I did things around the house and worked on my other project - our new Facebook page called Lawlessmilwaukeecouple.  I started the new Facebook page the day after we got married.  Since we are actually criminals now in Wisconsin I thought it would be fun to spoof the WI law and make it seem like we are now traveling the country evading WI authorities.  I figure I will keep it going as long as possible and as long as I continue to have fun with it.  Spent the afternoon watching movies.  Watched the movies Shall Not Kiss The Bride (which was really a cute movie - love story) and The Impossible (which I have seen twice before and still get chills when I watch).   After we fed the dogs supper we went out to eat at a bar a couple blocks down the street.  There was a pub crawl through the neighborhood and a band was playing in the bar.  Turned out to be a good choice of music and food.  Came home and spent the night watching Geography Club and Kill Your Darlings.  Geography Club was easier to follow and enjoy.  Went to bed around 10:30 PM.

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM.  Stella was doing again, a bit better than the day before when it came to her balance.  She also seems happier.  Fed the dogs and gave the dogs their meds.  Soon showered and left the house to go take Tony's mom out for breakfast.  After we dropped her off we stopped off at a fruit ranch and bought some fruit and ham and rolls for later.  Came home and spent the afternoon watching TV.  Did the lovin thing sometime in the afternoon while we were watching TV.   Made ham and rolls and baked beans for supper.  Spent the night watching the CBS lineup of The Good Wife and The Mentalist, before doing the lovin thing one more time and going to bed.  I swear getting married spices up the sex life.  I hope it continues.  I do find it nice to think I am 53, been with my man for over 25 years, and still enjoy having sex sometimes twice a day with him.  Not many couples could probably say the same?  Went to bed around 10:30 PM.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave the dogs their meds.  Stella walked good down off the bed and seemed really good today.  Tony soon left for work.  I spent the early morning reading the newspaper and then doing some cleaning and vacuuming around the house.  After I had a ham sandwich for lunch I decided to go for a walk along the river trails.  Have not gone for a walk down in the trails since last fall.  It was suppose to get to 50 today but at noon it still was only 41 degrees.  Bundled up and went on the walk anyway.  Had a great walk and remember why I love going for these walks.  They are so calming and I can talk to myself and reflect on life.  As I left the house I asked my tenant who's car was parked in the back of our yard in the parking area.  She told me a friend.  Funny, boyfriend yesterday said her sister.  When I asked why I saw her park and walk away and not come into the house, she said she had told her friend, having boyfriend problems, she could park her car here.  WTF?   I made it perfectly clear I did not want to see this car parked here ever again and we are not a public parking lot.  Jeez, I swear these tenants are frickin nuts.  I already know they are big liars.  I wouldn't put it past her to sell one of the parking spots for money.  Making a pork loin and rice for supper with salads tonight.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars while the DVR records other show on other channels. 

If your on Facebook, check out my new page named     Lawlessmilwaukeecouple

Friday, March 28, 2014

March 28, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV and giving Stella our total attention.  She did not throw up again the rest of the day due to her nausea pills I got from the vet in the afternoon.   Went to bed around 8 PM and watched Grey's Anatomy and a couple episodes of Everyone Loves Raymond before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6 AM.  Did not sleep well all night thinking about Stella.  Was able to get Stella off the bed without Tony's help.  Stella seems a bit more stable today.  When she shakes her head she does loose her balance and falls to the ground.  Fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot, and Stella her pills.  Spent the morning reading the newspapers and keeping Stella calm on the couch.  She did not throw up her breakfast and kept the pills down.  Went to have lunch with the guys and got back home by 1:15 PM.   Took a nice two hour nap with the dogs.  I do love nap time with the dogs.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV.  No plans this weekend which works out great so we can just keep an eye on Stella.  I still have to walk next to her outside so she doesn't slip on the ice or loose her balance shaking her head.   She is a real strong dog so it is sometimes hard to tell if she is in pain.  Once we get through this weekend we will have to figure out our next steps.  The doctor would like to sedate her and look in her ears.  Of course that comes with a $1000 fee or more we were told.  Will cross that bridge next week.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

March 27, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Spent the night keeping Stella calm.  Got her on the bed around 9 PM for the night.  She has a hard time walking.  Watched a little TV, did the lovin thing, and went to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Had to have Tony help me get Stella off the bed since she was too wobbly to get down the stairs I have next to the bed.  Fed the dogs and gave Stella her new pills.  Spent the morning just making sure she stayed in one spot and not try to walk around and hurt herself.  I do think it might be Vestibular disease, but it seems a bit different from the other dogs I had that had it.  After I gave Stella her lunch pill she threw up breakfast all over the kitchen.  Called the vet and just got back getting another pill to help with her nausea and dizziness.   Making salad and chicken cordon blue for supper with rice.  Will spend the night keeping Stella calm.  I am a little scared our days might be numbered with her.  Lot of tears been shed.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

March 26, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

This morning I was up by 6 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Around 7 AM, prior to Tony leaving work Stella had what I can only describe as a 'spell' of some sort.  Her eyes started darting from side to side and she seemed confused and could not stand.   She seemed to get through this 'spell' and after Tony left for work had a few more.  I called the vet and by 11 AM we had Stella being checked.  The vet seems to think it is vestibular disease since she has had so many ear problems.  I have dealt with this disease with two other dogs and this somehow seems different.  Thankfully I recorded one of her 'spells' and took the video with us to the vet.  When the other dogs had it they just 'got it' and it took days for them to walk straight and get their balance.  Stella seems to be fine one moment and then dizzy and can't walk the next.  She also is making a lot of moaning and noise.  So I am very concerned that there might be something more serious going on.  When we left the vet Stella had another 'spell' in the car and we had a hard time even getting her out.  She then was fine for a while and after I gave her one of the meds the vet gave us she threw up her breakfast.  Tony stayed home for about an hour so I could drive quickly to Pick N Save and do the weekly grocery shopping.  Since I have been home and he left back to work Stella has for the most part just been sleeping on the couch next to me.   Will spend the night with Stella watching TV.  I pray this is not the end of our time together or the beginning of the end. 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

March 25, 2014 Tuesday Morning

Saturday we spent most of the day just going through pictures and relaxing in front of the TV.  We did take a nap in the afternoon which led to a round of lovin.  Went out for dinner at our favorite Italian restaurant that we had our first date at on this date 25 years ago.  The restaurant has been slightly remodeled and under a different name, but the owners are the same.  They were so happy to hear of our wedding news and bought us dinner and drinks.  Came home and spent the night watching the gay themed movie Seeing Heaven.  Went to bed around 10 PM and before gong to sleep we did another round of lovin.

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspaper and doing little things around the house.  Left the house a little before noon to go to our favorite breakfast spot, Hubbard Park Lodge.  It is a bit expensive but we deserve it this weekend.  Had a great breakfast and the owner even bought us a round of drinks.  Stopped off at Tony's 2nd shop to show a potential renter that called us twice during lunch wanting to see and possible rent it.  Figured we might as well show it to him on our way home.  Picked up lottery tickets and came home for the day.  Spent the rest of the day watching TV.  Watched most of the night time TV in bed and before we went to sleep we did another round of lovin.  This wedding stuff really does boost one's sex life. 

Monday I was up by 7 AM to feed the dog and get Tony off to work.  I spent the day on the Internet and making copies of pictures.  Went to Walgreen's some time during the early afternoon to pick up the enlargements I ordered over the Internet.  Spent Monday night watching Dancing With The Stars. Did a round of lovin and then went to sleep.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Been going through pictures from the family and friends and just sent another order via the Internet to Walgreen's to be printed.  Will most likely pick them up when they send an email saying they are ready.  Snowed over night an inch.  Cold but sunny today in Milwaukee.  Not getting above freezing again today.  This Winter is never going to end.

I started a new fun Facebook page named   Lawlessmilwaukeecouple  .    If your on Facebook you can find the page and hopefully 'like' it.  I am going to pretend Tony and I are on the run since Wisconsin state law makes it a crime for residents to enter into marriage in another state if the marriage would be prohibited in Wisconsin. The law imposes a penalty for those who enter into a marriage that's prohibited or declared void in Wisconsin of up to $10,000 and nine months in prison.  I thought it would be fun to do a 'where's waldo' type page as we are on the run.  I am having fun with it and have the next week already planned out. 

Monday, March 24, 2014

March 21, 2014 Our Wedding Day

The morning started around 6:30 AM when I whispered in Tony's ear 'today's our day'.  He gave me a kiss and we soon got up out of bed to feed the dogs and get the day started.  Spent the early morning reading the newspaper.  By 8:30 AM I was in the shower so Tony could soon follow.  Got dressed in our suits and looking good.  Around 10 AM Tony's nephew showed up at the house.  He was coming with us to take pictures.  Tony's mom, and sister as well as three of our lunch buddies showed up on time by 10:45 AM.  The limo soon pulled up in the back alley.  We took a bunch of pictures in front of the limo.  In hindsight I wish I had the pictures taken in the front of the house.  I had to use a bit of photoshop to make them look like this:

The limo left a little after 11 AM and we then took the hour and a half ride down to Skokie Illinois to get married at the clerk of courts office.  Here are some pictures inside the limo on the way down to Illinois.
 Arrived at The Cheesecake Factory where we planned lunch before the ceremony.  Got to the restaurant on time and had a great lunch.  Here is a picture from lunch Tony's sister took.


After lunch and right on schedule we went to the clerk of court house around 2 PM.  Got to the court house and made it through the security having to take off our belts and empty pockets.  I beeped three times because I had things in pockets I forgot I had and my mind was not working.  Got signed in to find out the ceremony was not what we expected.  Was no way of changing anything so it had to be what it was.  A short 2 minute ceremony.  Almost didn't get any pictures because I sent the nephew photographer outside to get something from the car and he got help up at security as they called us to be next.  Had a small bridezilla moment but eventually he arrived and got the entire minute and a half on video.  Here is a picture of us at the end of the ceremony when I was just about to cry.


After the short wedding ceremony we all got back into the limo for the ride home.  Bought a strawberry cheesecake for the ride home.  Drank Champagne and ate cheesecake on the way home.
Got home around 4:45 PM and had a wonderful day.  Everyone left and after we got settled in I went across the alley to get the basket of food the neighbor had put together for us.  Lasagna, bread, salad and desert.  It was so thoughtful and good.  Here is a picture of the spread.


Spent the night watching TV and reflecting on the day.  Went to bed around 10 PM and had a great round of lovin.  All in all, a perfect day.  We are finally after 25 years together legally married.


Thursday, March 20, 2014

March 20, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV.  Went to bed around 9 PM to watch the last hour in bed.  Was up until after 1 AM just laying in bed thinking.

Got up this morning at 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Read the morning newspaper and showered by 10 AM.  Left the house a little after 11 AM to pick up another bottle of Stella's ear drops at the vet.  I then went to ARCW to get my monthly prescriptions that I called twice about to make sure they would be ready, only to get there and 2 of five were ready to pick up.  Seems to happen more times than not.  Stopped off at the flower shop to pick up Tony's, Tony's mom, and my boutonnieres for tomorrows wedding.  Tomorrow at this time the wedding should be over and I should be a legally married man.  When I actually think of it, I cry.  I have been in tears a lot today just thinking about how long I have waited for this day and the fact it is finally going to happen.  Wish my family was going to be a part of my wedding, but they are not, and will have to address that with them next week.  I will address this with my family next week how disappointed they have made me.  My mom has not even called me again today.  Wow.  Talking to me about my wedding is just to much for her.  How sad.  And she is the one who constantly tells me 'she is on my side' and understands.  Tony is hopefully going to come home early tonight and we are just going to order some subs for supper and spend a quite night at home with the dogs. 

Tomorrow is hopefully going to be the happiest day of my life.  I will write sometime over the weekend and post a picture if I can.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

March 19, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV and going through Tony's dad's old jewelry to pick out one or two to wear on Friday to our wedding.  Went to bed around 9 PM to watch more TV.  Tony was asleep in five minutes.   I laid there all night long, at times in tears.  Spent the entire night thinking how sad my family is once again treating me with my wedding to Tony.  How can a family treat me like this, twice?  See, I have yet to get only 2 responses from family members about attending our wedding in two days.  It is like they took the invitation and just read it and threw it away.  Is that how you treat a brother or son?  I have put up with this for way too long and thinking it is time to cut the family ties after this week if I do not hear from them.  My mother who I talk to weekly has yet to even call me this week.  I know why.  Because she doesn't want to talk about my wedding.  Yes,   the word is just to much for her to say.   She continues to tell me how she accepts Tony and I and then you see what that means by her actions this week ............ none.   Don't you think I need a mother's advice and help this week? 

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Really did not sleep all night.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  I spent the morning cleaning the house.  I figure on Friday there might be some people who will come in the house prior to leaving and I will not have time tomorrow to clean.  In fact tonight is the last time I am cooking and it is a frozen pizza.  Not going to dirty the kitchen and make dishes to wash.  Took a nice nap with the dog although I find myself just laying there thinking and feeling very bitter towards my family.  How rude for only two family members to say congratulations to us on our big day.  Tony keeps saying that since they did not send regrets they will surprise us at the court house.  I find that highly unlikely and will most likely be in tears when I realize it is not going to happen.  They all did this to us 21 years ago for our Holy Union.  This is my families time to make up for there rude homophobia behavior back then and they are failing.  I even posted on Facebook today:  Silence speaks louder than words.   Hoping they will get the point but I guess I am reaching for the stars on this one.  My neighbor is doing more for us than my family.   I know it is our day and I should not let them get to me, but it does hurt.  It hurts a lot.  I started an open letter to them that will be sent out after the wedding to those I do not hear from.   Here are my points and thoughts.  I look forward to comments.


Disappointed
I got married, had the biggest day of my life and most of my family choose to not even congratulate me on our day.   How would that make you feel?

I sent out an invitation to everyone letting them know the place, time and date.  I said if you could not make it to please send well wishes with regrets.  How rude is it to not only not respond that you won't attend, but to not even say congratulations to their son or brother, or future son in law?

If a perfect stranger walked up to any of them on the street and said they were getting married to the person they have been with for 25 years, the first thing out of their mouths would be 'congratulations'.   Yet most of my family can not even say that. 
I do put some of the blame on mom and dad.  They encouraged this behavior by pretty much doing the same as them...nothing.  They also chose not to congratulate their son or brother on the most important day of his life.

I honestly thought that this was the perfect opportunity to make up for way they all disappointed me 21 years ago when I had a Holy Union to show my love for Tony and not one of them send back the response cards or showed any support.  Yes, not one sent back the printed response cards.

Can you imagine how Tony must feel?  All week long when I am in tears he will say to me 'they won't disappoint you again this time.  They must not have responded because they are going to surprise you and be at the wedding'.   Tony keeps defending them all until the end when I finally will realized at the court house that not one of my family will show for my wedding.   

In tears because my family was so thoughtless they could not even respond to my invitation and send flowers or a card in their absence?

My one sister of all people should understand.  Can you imagine if we never came around to liking her husband when she moved out with him or if none of us attended her wedding back then or treated Rick as her husband to this day?

Don’t you think I would have loved my mother’s advice and guidance this past week when I was going crazy trying to make Tony and our day perfect.  Did you help my two sisters the week of their weddings?   Why is mine different?

Did you help them with 'something old something new, something borrowed something blue'?  Wouldn't it have been fun to share that with me for the most important day of my life.

You don't have to like who I marry or married.  I do expect you to treat a brother a bit better than a stranger that would have gotten a simple 'congratulations' when you were informed of their day.  Shame on all of you.  Not even a congratulations.

I can not subject my family to this homophobia any longer until I receive an apology from each of them.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

March 18, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle.  Did the lovin thing some time during Castle.  Went to sleep after the local news.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Read the morning newspaper and showered to get on with the day.  Left the house around 10 AM to go to Kohl's to buy two pairs of blue underwear for 'something blue' on our wedding day. 
Figure we will go through Tony's dad's rings and pick out a pinkie ring for each of us for 'something borrowed'.  Not sure yet what we will do for something 'new', which could be my new suit, or something 'old'.  Will figure it all out.  Stopped off at Tony's shop to confirm his employee / nephew is going to come with us on Friday as my 'go to guy' and video guy of the wedding.   After I was home for a while I decided to leave the house again and go to Pick N Save and buy a few items for the week.   Figured I would get it done today since it looks like rain tomorrow.   Came home and spent the rest of the day doing things around the house.  Tried to lay down for a while but had too much on my mind and got up within 45 minutes of laying in bed with my eyes open staring at the ceiling thinking.  Confirmed the final count with the restaurant for lunch and called them.  Got our suits and ties all out and shirts to go with them.  Tried to get a collar stain off one shirt.  The Internet said to use a toothbrush and shampoo to get out the collar ring on a shirt.  Well, they should have said not to scrub too hard because the shirt is not garbage because you can see the fabric where I scrubbed is not good and now worn.  Made some salads and will heat a couple cans of beefaroni with bread for supper.  Tony will not like the beefaroni but I am in no mood to make a big supper and figure from this point forward we will be ordering food delivered.   Will most likely spend the night watching TV.   Got to 35 degrees today in Milwaukee.  Starting to look like Friday might be the best day of the week, crossing my fingers. 

Monday, March 17, 2014

March17, 2014 Monday Afternoon

I was sick all weekend.  Between the stomach cramping and bowel problems and the sinus infection I was not happy all weekend.  Spent Friday night watching the last four episodes of the HBO series Looking.  I do like this series and look forward when it returns for a second season.  Went to bed around 9 PM with cold chills and sweats all night long.  Horrible night trying to sleep. 

Got up Saturday morning by 7 AM to feed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent all day just trying to stay alive from the stomach and sinus pain.  Thankfully Tony is happy to spend a weekend doing nothing.  Was suppose to go to a big private party we were invited to at a friend bar Saturday night, but I just could not get the strength to go.    Spent the night watching the HBO series True Detective Saturday night and got through 4 of 8 episodes before calling it a night and going to bed.  Cold sweat and chills all night again.

Sunday morning I actually woke up feeling better.  Not great, but a bit better.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Soon found out Tony was not feeling good and had the runs.  Spent the day laying around the house watching TV.  Spent the afternoon watching the final four episodes of HBO's True Detective.  It was very entertaining and we both enjoyed it.   After we fed the dogs supper we drove to get lottery tickets and then some supper at Culver's.  Came home and spent the night watching The Good Wife and The Mentalist before going to bed.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  My stomach still does not feel great.  Damn,  four days after eating Ramen noodles and my stomach still is not back to normal.  I will never eat them again.  Ran into my tenant in the back hallway to find out their 9 month old daughter starts day care today for free at the YMCA here in Milwaukee.  WTF?  They both don't work, stay home all day, and they need free day care?   Am I fucking nuts to wonder why two people sitting home all day need tax payers to pay for their child's daycare.  Much less why do the tax payers now have to pay for childcare so they can sit home all day and sleep?  Took Bo to the vet at 10:30 AM to get his nails trimmed.  Also ordered another bottle of Stella's ear drops because the small bottle they gave us for $30 is not going to last the week.  Came home and spent the rest of the day confirming reservations for our Friday wedding.  Got a card from my one brother congratulating us on our wedding with a nice check.  Was not expecting any gifts but actually broke down crying when I opened the card.  See, my one sister and one brother are the only ones who have even said congratulations on our upcoming wedding.  Feeling very emotional today and overwhelmed to be honest.  Took a nice two hour nap with the dogs this afternoon.  Could have just stayed in bed the rest of the day and night to be honest.  Making beef ribs, mashed potato and corn for supper.  Tony just called, sounding almost in tears himself, to tell me the horrible day he is having.  I did not need to hear any of this but let him talk and vent.  I kept saying to myself 'just listen and be supportive'.   I think it helped for him to get it all off his chest.  Sounds like the employees are fucking up jobs right and left and now one is needing off on Thursday for this and another on Friday for that.  Once again they are not there for him when HE needs time off.  When he was done talking I told him I honestly wish he would stop buying cars and sell the damn auto body shop.  The customers are getting worse and the employees he can't count on ever.  Feeling very stressed right now.  Will most likely spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before going to bed.  I honestly just wish this day would end.

Friday, March 14, 2014

March 14, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Made the mistake of making Ramen noodles and pizza for supper.  I should know better.  Was up all night with stomach pain and gas problems.  I still as I type this am sore in my bladder area.  Every time I eat those things I have stomach craps and pain for days.  I will never eat them again.  Went to bed early and was trying to sleep by 9 PM.  With all the pain I hardly slept all night and spent the night getting up every hour or so to drink a half a glass of water.  Thankfully I think all the water helped me shake my sinus infection.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Really never slept all night from the pain in my intestines.  Colored my hair this morning in preparation of next weeks wedding.  Have to look my best and 10 years younger?  Try anyway.  Drove to the bank around 10:30 AM and back home.  Got my income tax refund and wanted to get it in the bank.  Tony picked me up for lunch and we had lunch with the guys.  Had a great lunch.  Tony dropped me back off at home and within 15 minutes I was back in bed.  Got a two hour nap and could have stayed in bed if it were not for the fact I would most likely be up again all night tonight.  Drinking a cup of coffee.  Will most likely spend the night finally watching the series last four episodes of Looking.  Will be time for bed when we are done watching the four half hour shows.   Got to 50 degrees today but it will not last long.  Doesn't even look like we get above freezing all weekend.  No plans this weekend.  Will most likely just spend a lot of time at home and any last minute details for this next Friday's wedding.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

March 13, 2014 Thursday Afternoon

Last night I went to bed at 7:30 PM.   Watched TV for a while as I tried to fall asleep.  Bundled up real good hoping to sweat the cold out.  Turned off the TV around 11 PM because we had fallen asleep at least an hour prior.

This morning I got out of bed at 6:30 AM.  Still feeling like crap.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Would have loved to go back to bed but I had to have Stella back at the vet for an 8:30 AM appointment for her ears to be checked and get new drops.  The vet still is not happy with Stella's ears and said if she was any other breed but a Pitbull she would be in noticeable pain.  Pitbull's are so strong.  Even with the vet doing things to her ears she just looked up at me and trusted me that all was going to be OK.  I could tell she was in pain when the vet was sucking out the gook in her ears with a syringe.  Got the new drops and stopped off at McDonald's for an egg bacon cheese bagel.  Was back in bed about 15 minutes after I finished the bagel.  Spent the rest of the morning and most of the afternoon in bed watching TV bundled up hoping to get rid of this cold.  Got up around 3:30 PM to take a shower and get something done around the house.  I am hoping the cup of coffee I am drinking wakes me up a bit.  I do feel a little better from resting all day, but my face and head ache in pain from the sinus infection.  Started another round of Levofloxacin to hopefully be better by next week Friday's wedding.  I better not, no, I can not be sick next week.  I think I might have out grown this antibiotic now also.   Sinus infections all my life have gotten me to this point.  Even with sinus surgery and all, I still get these damn sinus infections a couple times a year.  They are getting harder and harder to get rid of each time I have one.   Was told by my doctor there is really only one more stronger antibiotic left and I am out of options.  That scares me.  Making soup and pizza for supper tonight.  Will most likely be in bed early again tonight watching TV.  I do love being in bed with my four dogs all around me.  It feels very secure and loving with them snuggling next to me.  It is finally 32 degrees as I type this post.  Been a steady increase all day starting out in the teens.  The sun is out and feels good to see the snow start to melt again.  Tomorrow we are suppose to get to 50 degrees before we go back to the 30s for the next few days.  We should be in the 40s and more 50s by this time of year. 

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

March 12, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV from the DRV.  I was not in the mood to key up all four episodes of HBO's series Looking from the computer to the TV.  Went to bed around 9 PM and after an hour of TV we went to sleep.

Woke up this morning by 6 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Not feeling good today.  I have a sinus infection and my face is hurting from the pain.  My lungs still do not feel right either and with April would get here so I could get my chest xray on my new insurance that starts April 1st.  Feel tired and honestly could just go to bed right now.  I am not happy about being sick but I guess it is better to get it this week then next week for our wedding.  Did very little today.  Pretty much just laid around the house watching TV.  Was going to pick up Stella's new ear drops when the vet called and said she would like to see Stella when I get the drops so I made an 8:30 AM appointment for tomorrow morning.  I have been cleaning her ears twice a day since Monday's appointment as I was told.   Was only 20 degrees and very windy today in Milwaukee.  Cold Cold Cold.  I want Spring so bad.  Making spaghetti for supper tonight.  Will most likely go to bed early tonight.   I hope this cold passes fast.  I feel like crap.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

March 11, 2014 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching TV off the DVR.  Went to the bed around 8:30 PM to finish watching the night's TV in bed.  Ended up doing a round of the lovin thing before turning the TV off and going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the early morning reading the newspaper.  Around 9:30 AM I went to Kohl's to buy a new suit for next weeks wedding in Illinois.  I have gained weight and none of my suits fit or look good on me.  Since I only plan on getting married once I figured I would buy a nice new suit.  I walked into Kohl's at 10 AM and walked out at noon with a suit.  Took me two hours and about 10 different suits to find the one I think I like.  I didn't plan on spending two hours and was surprised by the time.  Stopped off at McDonald's for a hamburger and French fries.  Then stopped off at a flower store a couple blocks from the house and ordered the boutonnieres for next week.   I hope that is the correct spelling.  Also ordered one for Tony's mom who will be with us for the wedding.  Have to pick them up next Thursday the day before the wedding.  Came home and before I took a two hour nap with the dogs I wrote the tenant another note telling her to pick up the dog poop in the back yard.  I have four dogs and there is no poop in my side yard.  They have one dog and there is a back yard full of poop because they are so lazy.  She picked up a little yesterday and I think she thought she was done.  I want it ALL picked up.  Not just the big piles.  Heck, we use the back as our entrance.   Noticed her outside in the rain picking it up later this afternoon.  They did nothing all weekend and have not picked up the poop almost all Winter.  Damn, they are so lazy.  Honestly I just wish they would give notice.  Making an Oncore meatloaf and mashed potato with a salad for supper tonight.  Will spend the night watching TV or maybe watch the last four episodes of the HBO series Looking, before we go to bed.  It is raining outside right now and about 40 degrees.  Should turn into snow over night and add up to a couple inches the weather people are saying.  Enough with this Winter.

Monday, March 10, 2014

March 10, 2014 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we went out for a cod fish fry at a local gay bar / restaurants.  Was good but we both were not very hungry and left a little behind.  Stopped off at the bar next door where a friend bar tends and had another drink before heading home.  When we got home I gave Tony the book I created for our First 25 Years Together.  We spent about an hour going through it.  I then cut us a piece of ice cream cake and we watched a little more TV before going to bed and doing the lovin thing before we went to sleep.

Saturday morning we were up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Around 10 AM we went to the shop to feed the cats and let the one go that we had fixed the day before.  Came home and after about an hour I talked Tony into going to Walmart with me.  I had a long list plus the Insulin and syringes.  Total came to $525 in all.  WOW.  But we are stocked for months with needed supplies.  Spent the rest of the afternoon watching TV from the DVR.  Went out for supper at an Italian restaurant down the street.  Spent the night watching the movie The Bachelorette.  Was good enough movie.  Went to bed and did the lovin thing again before going to sleep. 

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM again.  Did the morning routine.  Over night I figured out the checkout lady at Walmart did not run $6 worth of coupons through so I got in my car at 9 AM and went to Walmart to get my $6 I should have gotten yesterday taken off the bill.  Got the money will little hassle.  Stopped off and bought lottery tickets for the week and came home.  Tony was showered and we soon left to go take his mom out for breakfast like we do every couple weeks.  On the way home we stopped off at Walgreen's to get a prescription for Tony.  Of course Tony grabbed the wrong new insurance card and had to go back after dropping me off at home.  Tony went back and got his prescription and went to the shop to feed and change the litter box for the cat they are keeping yet in the shop because it bit an employee.  Have to now keep if for 10 days to make sure it doesn't have rabbis.  Spent the afternoon watching TV from the DVR taking a break in the middle of the afternoon for another round of lovin.   That is three times this weekend.  Guess this getting married in two weeks is making us romantic for each other.  Made some pizzas for supper and spent the night watching TV.  Went to bed around 9 PM and watched the last hour of TV in bed before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Tony left for work by 7:30 AM.  It was to be a nice warm day here in Milwaukee.  This time of year the temperature take drastic changes and today we are going to get to 55 degrees.  Tomorrow it is back to Winter and in the teens and snow.  Only in Wisconsin.  Spent the day cleaning, doing laundry, cleaning the outside yard, and just things around the house.  Tony came home for lunch and soon I had to take Stella back to the vet for her ear infection.  Seems the infection has not gone away and the doctor is ordering another new drop to try in her ear to get rid of the infection.  Was told if this doesn't clear up the infection they will have to put her under and clean out her ears / flushing them.  Sounds expensive.  Today's visit was another $75 and that doesn't include the special medicine I will have to pick up when they get it.  Had to tell my tenants today it is time to pick up their dog poop in the back yard.  I have four dogs and pick it up daily.  They have one and the back yard it full of poop because they are so lazy.  They did nothing all weekend but were home.  I saw she spread out the poop in the snow and I had to leave her a note saying that was not acceptable and needed to be completely cleaned and from this point daily.  Why do I even have to tell people this?  Lazy ass tenants.  Making sweet and sour chicken for supper and will most likely spend the night watching TV from the DVR.  

Friday, March 7, 2014

March 7, 2014 Friday Afternoon

Yesterday Tony and I left the house a little after 10 AM and drove to Skokie Illinois to get our marriage license.  We first stopped off at a couple restaurants to see how they were and if they would be something we would want to eat at before the ceremony.  The first three restaurants we did not like for various reasons.  We finally just drove to the county clerks office in Skokie and got our license.  Was fun.  The lady at the desk tried to rush it because she assumed we wanted to get it done and over with.  I kept telling her to take her time and that we were enjoying every minute of the questions and have looked forward to this for 25 years.  We got our license and had a stranger take a picture of us standing outside the office.
After we got out license we drove a half mile down the road to Orchard Mall and picked The Cheesecake Factory as the restaurant to have lunch at in two weeks before our wedding.  We did go in and have lunch and it was good food and we will all enjoy it.  I am pretty sure I won't be hungry anyway an hour before my wedding, but the others along with us will be.  Drove the hour and a half home and got home a little after 3 PM.  Was a wonderful day.  Spent last night watching TV and went to bed by 9 PM.  Was sleeping by 9:30.

This morning I was up before 6 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony and I left the house in separate cars to his shop before 7 AM.  I picked up the one cat the employees trapped yesterday and drove it up to the Waukesha Humane Society to get fixed.  Came home and after I showered and did some things around the house it was time to go to lunch with the guys.  Today is Tony's birthday so lunch is on him / us.  Had a great lunch and sang happy birthday.  Tony dropped me off after lunch and about an hour later I left the house again to drive the half hour drive to the Humane Society to pick up the cat and bring it back for the night in the shop before we release her tomorrow.  It is after 4 PM and I could really use a nap.  No time though since we are going out for supper tonight for Tony's birthday.  Will have a nice cod fish fry at a local gay bar.  Will be home early because it has been a long day for both of us.  I am going to give Tony the book I made for our 25th anniversary tonight.  Figure tonight is as good a time as any since it has been sitting her for almost a month.  Bought him a card and a brownie ice cream cake.   Need to lay down on the couch for a bit before Tony gets home or I will not make it through supper I am so tired.  Eyes are closing as I type and making a lot of spelling mistakes.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

March 5, 2014 Wednesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching NCIS and NCIS LA before going to the bed.  Tony fell asleep immediately.  I watched a couple episodes of Everybody Loves Raymond before turning off the TV and going to sleep.

This morning we were up by 5:30 AM.  Fed the dogs around 6 AM and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work around 6:30 AM to get the cats ready for the half hour to 45 minute drive out to Waukesha to get them fixed.  Since we had to get them to the Humane Society by 8 AM we had to leave the shop by 7 AM with morning traffic.  I met Tony at the shop with my car and we did indeed get on the road before 7 AM.  Dropped off the two cats, mom and dad of the cats, and headed home in rush hour traffic again.  The snow in the road didn't help.  Got back home by 9 AM and spent the morning doing things around the house.  Tony will have to and should have already picked up the cats since they needed to be picked back up by 4 PM and it is after that now.  They will then need to spend tonight in the shop to stay warm and be released tomorrow morning.   He will remember to pick them up, I hope.  I am afraid to call and will just wait and see what he says when he comes home for the day.  I think this cat thing has stressed him out also.   The male cat had peed in the cage and the smell all the way to the 'fixing' vet was terrible.  We had the windows cracked and the temp was 10 degrees outside.    The vet did call around noon to say both cats made it through surgery.  I had a 1:30 PM doctor appointment to get more prescriptions of pain pills and such and also to make appointments for a future heart and lung scan as well as colonoscopies for both Tony and I.  Got all referral information and the prescriptions I wanted.  I would like a lung scan since I smoked for 30 years and my lungs sometime hurt.  Would rather be pro active then have a tumor show up down the road to late.  Stopped off at Walgreens and dropped off the prescriptions.  Bought a few items and came home.  Will pick the prescriptions up on Friday because they had to have the pain pill prescription changed because of new rules?  More government red tape.  Bought a couple disposable cameras to put in the Limo for the drive back and forth to get married in two weeks.  Tomorrow we plan on driving to Skokie IL to get our marriage license.  I hope to make it a fun trip tomorrow and kind of a test run for the big event in two weeks.  Will check out the restaurant we hope to eat lunch at also to make sure it is nice.  Making a frozen pizza and salads for supper tonight since I could go to bed right now to be honest and don't really feel like cooking or being creative and making something for supper.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV from the DVR while it records all of tonight's shows.  The DVR is getting full again and time to watch TV from the DVR to fast forward through commercial and watch more TV per hour / night.  Tony will be tired and asleep by 8 PM I bet.  Been a long day for both of us.