July 15, 2011 Friday Dinner Time

Tony and I went to Bastille Days last night and had a great time. We left the house around 7 PM and got home shortly after 10 PM. Watched the runners 'storm the Bastille' run. The men were all pretty sweaty after the run but still looked delicious. Coming in the door was another story when we got home since all the dogs were so happy to see me they jumped and barked, trampling all over Vito as they did it. Got everyone settled and soon went to bed. Had a little lovin from all the eye candy before we went to bed.

This morning Vito got me up at 5 AM to go to the bathroom. Took him back to bed for an hour again and then got up and fed all the dogs. Everyone ate again including Vito so I was able to give him his Insulin shot. Spent the morning doing things around the house and went to lunch at noon with the guys. Had a great lunch. At one point we were laughing so hard I had tears. My Friday lunch with the HIV guys is my best therapy for the money. Came home and spent the afternoon taking a nap with the dogs. Got up around 4 PM and let all the dogs out, watching Vito maneuver around the rocks outside even though I know he can not see a thing. Tonight Tony and I are going to Bastille Days again after 7 PM. It might be the last time I do anything outside for a week since after today it is to get into the 90s and stay there for a week. Next week will not be a good week. I hate temperatures this high and the humidity is not fun either. Hate the thought of leaving Vito for any time at all but I have to keep telling myself that my time away from all this is also important for my sanity too. I have to stay calm and the only way that is going to happen is if I take some time for me and some fun also. It is very hard though for me to do this since you all know my dogs are my babies and I love them so much. I will just stay away from home for shorter periods of time.

Been reading all your comments. Thanks you. Appreciate all your thoughts and kind words. Be assured that I would never keep Vito around for myself. When I see he is no longer happy to walk around the house in the dark I will do what needs to be done. I have done it four times now with my past dogs. I had to say goodbye to Shadow, Tiny, Betty and Buddy. It never got easier but had to be done. I know it is the hardest thing in the world to do but when that time comes I will do what is best for Vito. As long as he listens to me and I still see him play with Bo once or twice during the day I have no reason to do anything different than what I am doing now. Making whatever time he has left happy days is my main goal at this time. If he starts to hurt himself being blind, I will do what needs to be done. If I put him down now it would be because of me and that would be a hard thing to live with the rest of my life. So right now, I have to put my life aside and take care of Vito as long as he is still happy. And he is still happy. And making Vito happy makes me happy.