August 6, 2009 Friday Morning

Happy Friday morning. On this day in history: 9 years ago today I euthanized my first dog Shadow. She is the black Pomeranian in the pictures on the side bar. She was the first dog I ever had to personally make that dreaded decision to end her life. I remember the weeks leading up to it and the day and days afterwards. I cry every time I think how she should never have been put down that day by the quack doctor that did it. He was new that day, never met him, and just kinda made the decision before Tony and I had a chance to take her to a specialist for her coughing. I also was not very kind to her in her last two weeks. Tony and I were under a lot of stress at the time and should have handled the whole thing differently. She was 12 1/2 years young. I have always said if I had the chance to change a couple things in my life one would have been how Shadow was euthanized and her final weeks. I sure hope she forgave me for my lack of compassion in her final weeks when she needed me most. I was not a good daddy and still regret to this day.

One year ago today I was fired from the job I had held for 4 1/2 years. As you all know I am back working for the owner on a limited basis. The months after this firing I am sure took a toll on my health and helped get me to where I was at Christmas time and then the dreaded AIDS diagnosis in January. Thank goodness I am not bitter. LOL

Wednesday night Tony and I went to Phantom of the Opera. It was good. Never saw it before. Not sure I would see it again. But it was entertaining. Thursday I put in about 5 hours at work on the computer and helping people with challenges. Got some money for my July hours which was very much needed due to no rent this month from the upstairs rental. Money is a little tight this month. Sure hope I find a tenant soon. Made a big dinner last night of rice, green beans and pot roast. This morning Tony and I have spent more time on the toilet than on the couch watching the morning news. Maybe this is a sign I should not cook? Yah, I can go with that. I will have to tell Tony that tonight when we order out. Suppose to get some big thunder storms tonight so I am looking forward to staying home and enjoying them. I usually go grocery shopping on Friday mornings but with the bowel pain and just feeling crappy today I think I will not go shopping. Hopefully I will feel better by lunch so Tony and I can have lunch with the guys. Since we missed last Friday's lunch because of the carpet installation I am looking forward to the laughs. We always laugh and have such a good lunch every Friday with the guys. Suppose to be in the 90s Saturday thru Monday. YUCK. Guess we will be catching up on weeks worth of Weeds and Nurse Jackie I have been downloading. I made a new dance megamix the other day. It has a lot of the already mixed music but in a different version and a few new songs. Check it out. It is at the top of this page.