June 4, 2009 Thursday Night

Got up at 7 AM this morning and after the morning routine I drove to Home Depot to buy two gallons of exterior paint. One white, one the color of our new siding on the recent addition. Repainted the north side wall of the garage the color or the new siding, the color Tony wanted. It took three coats which right there told me the rest of the garage is staying the green color it is now. Too much work right now. I did also paint the white trim on the back and side of the garage as well as a small portion of the house. I am picking off small areas of the house and hopefully by the end of the summer I will have the first floor trim painted. Was having a pretty good day today till I got the US mail today and a letter from Social Security saying I was NOT approved. So now the appeal process begins. ARCW is helping me with it and I already scheduled an appointment with someone there to file the right paperwork. I honestly can not believe I was not approved. It was a big set back today and took my afternoon in a downward spiral. It just makes me feel more worthless and how I am not contributing to the marriage. Plus I always prided myself on knowing that I could always support myself if I had to. Now I am a little scared. I honestly could not hold a full time job. I don't have enough consistent days in a row to work a full day five days a week. I might have one or two good days before I then have not so good a day and am very tired and such. Not sure what my next steps will be after the appeal process. Thank god I have Tony. Took Barkley back to the vet this afternoon. Guess he has a staff skin infection. Is now on an antibiotic and special food for a month to see if it is a food alergy thing. Made salad and frozen pizza for dinner tonight. Watching some stupid stupid movie on Logo right now. Sometimes you wish you never start movies such as this one. I am sure we will be in bed around 10 PM since I am very tired and Tony looks like he could fall asleep on the couch soon.