January 23, 2009 Friday Morning

Took my first AIDS meds at 9pm last night. Guess I'll remember that day and date just like the day I found out this news. I did not sleep well last night. I should have taken an anxiety pill before bed too, but didnt want to mix to many drugs at once.
Was a tough night. I paced the living room constantly saying to myself 'I have AIDS'. WOW, it was bad enough when I had to say 'I have HIV', now this. It just keeps running through my head.
I contacted my doctor to ask if I should continue the first meds he gave me now that I am taking these new drugs. Hope to get a return call soon. Also left a message on a lawyers number to return my call so Tony and I can update our Wills and Power of Attorney. Also need social security questions and Tony carrying me as an employee and his health insurance questions. Plus, do I put the house in both our names now to make it easier down the road if something happens to me?
So a lawyer is a must at his point. Hope ARCW can provide one cheap or at least reasonable.
The AIDS drug copay I picked up yesterday was only $35 thank god, was told without insurance a months worth would be $2000. WOW.
Took an anxiety pill about an hour ago. It was needed. Glad its Friday, another weekend with my honey and the dogs.
No call yet on a job offer but that is the least of my worries at this point. At least as long as Tony keeps making money. LOL
I guess I would discribe my mood right now as just 'numb'. Good word. Numb.