January 27, 2009 Tuesday

I'm still alive. I spent the rest of Monday pretty much in bed. Today I feel better than I did yesterday. I don't feel great, in fact after this post I am going to nap, but since I feel 'better' I guess thats the key word. Lets see if the Mac and Cheese I just ate for lunch stays down.
Tony just called to check in to see how I am feeling. What a sweet heart hey?

I spent this morning feeling sorry for myself again but I got out of bed and got things done while I felt this way still feeling sick. Dishes are done, dog poop outside is picked up, I vaccumed and picked up the whole house, and have even showered. Getting sick like this just makes me realize how nothing I thought of before will ever be thought that way again. Every little thing I get I am going to wonder if maybe tomorrow will be the day I am carted away to the hospital. The fact I feel even a little better today does wonders for the mind. At least I know my body does have fight left in it. My doctors and friends told me I would still get sick and flu's like every other year, it just might take longer to get rid of them.

I did get a call on a resume I sent to the Milwaukee LGBT Community Center for a Data Entry Specialist. I have an interview next week Wednesday. It would be an entry level job full time at the LGBT Center. How great would that be? I would be right where all or any new information about HIV and stuff comes first. I am really hoping I do good next week at this intrview. Glad it is a week away so I can get healthy and have another week to get my head together. This HIV AIDS stuff is hard to wrap your mind around at times. I think when I go to the center on Wednesday night for my meeting I will seek out the interviewer just to say Hi and introduce myself. When I sent my resume I thought long and hard and did add a paragraph adding that I was recently diagnosed HIV+. I'm thinking that might have caught the interviews eye. Got to do anything you can these days to get your foot in the door. Maybe the interviewer will have more sympathy and find I am a better fit since I will be able to relate to other gay peoples problems, time will tell. If it is ment to be it will be.

OK, time to go take a nap. This exhausted me. I feel so sorry for the dogs. Barkley needs a walk so bad. Maybe after my nap I will have the strength.