December 31, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching three more episodes of Homeland from this season.  We are half way through this years shows.  Went to bed around 9 PM and watched some TV in bed before going to sleep a little after 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 6:00 AM.  Tony climbed over to my side of the bed before he got up and that led to a round of lovin.  Got up.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Went to Pick N Save this morning to buy some taco dip and nachos for tonight since we are staying in.  I have two big T Bone steaks I got from mom for Christmas that we will make for supper.  Will spend the night watching Anderson Cooper ring in the new year.  Made a batch of chocolate crack bark that my neighbor had made and gave me instruction on how to make them.  They actually turned out good and they are so addictive hence calling it 'crack' bark.  No plans tonight which is good since it is suppose to start snowing soon and we might get up to 6 inches over night.  Plus it is only 10 degrees outside right now and not going to get any warmer outside.  Perfectly happy to stay home and watch TV with Tony and the dogs.

I saw on Facebook an idea and started it.  I made a jar and wrote on it '2014 Happy Memories'.  As the year goes by I will drop little notes or pieces of paper into it containing happy moments or times that occur during the year.  Then next New Year's you go through them all and remember all the happy moments.   I think it is a great idea and made a jar for notes this morning. 

I still am thinking about the Showtime series Time Of Death.  I tell you that series sure got me thinking and under my skin.  Actually during episode 5 I had a panic attack thinking about death and how painful and scary it all is.  I had to look up at the ceiling and breath slowly.  I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest and I could not breath.  The show is that good and that honest about death.  I told Tony I want to move to Oregon.  At least they allow assisted suicide.  I think we are more humane to our animals than we are to our dying or old people.  I do recommend finding this show and have a box of tissues handy while you watch it.

Happy New Year.  See you in 2014.

December 30, 2013 Monday Afternoon

By Friday night I got word that our dinner plans for Saturday night were being canceled due to one of the friends being sick and with him starting chemo tomorrow it is best for him to stay indoors and away from people.  I was disappointed.   Spent Friday night watching TV off the DVR.  Went to bed a little after 10 PM.

Saturday morning we were up by 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspaper and watching TV.  A little before noon we went to Home Depot and bought a ceiling fan for the living room.  We have been without one for some time and with the cold outside and the cold in the house, we need one to circulate the air.  Took us a while to decide on one we both liked and bought it.  Was more than I wanted to spend but was happy to have it bought.  Stopped at Culver's on the way home for lunch.  Came home and decided to take a nap before tackling the ceiling fan.  Of course the nap turned into a round of lovin by the time we got up.  Spent the night installing the ceiling fan which went smoothly.  We then started watching the 6 episodes series from Showtime called Time Of Death.  I had downloaded the series because I read it was one of the top shows to watch in 2013.  Got half way through the series, first three episodes of six, before going to bed.  All the crying watching the show Time Of Death must have made us loving for each other because soon after getting into bed we were doing the lovin thing again.  That is twice in one day.  Went to sleep by 11 PM.

Sunday we were up again by 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Spent a little time reading the newspaper and after we showered we went out for breakfast.  Stopped off at Walmart since it was still early in the day and bought a few items on the way home.  Bought the weeks worth of lottery tickets at the corner store and came home.  Spent the afternoon watching the final three episodes of Time Of Death.  I think we went through an entire box of tissue watching this series.  Very good, very honest look at death.  Each episode follows one person through their last days and the day they die.  Jeez, I am not looking forward to dying if I have to go like these people did.  Spent the rest of the day watching the first four episodes of 12 of this past season of Homeland.  I like to binge watch an entire show's season and waited until the complete season was over to start watching.  I am not liking this season of Homeland as much but then again I did read everything about it as it was playing last fall and pretty much even know the ending of this season.  Went to bed around 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  I had already planned on not leaving the house today or tomorrow due to the cold.  It was negative 5 degrees at 8 AM this morning.  It is 5 degrees right now at 3:15 PM in the afternoon.  Spent the day doing things around the house.  Spent the afternoon on the couch with the dogs listening to Alan Parson's Project from my college days.  Making an Oncore dinner and mac and cheese for supper tonight.  Will most likely watch a couple more episodes of Homeland before we had to bed.

December 27, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night watching a couple episodes of The Walking Dead that I had on the DVR.  Went to bed around 9 PM and watched a couple episodes of Web Soup before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Didn't sleep well last night due to the nap I took that afternoon.  I don't think I fell asleep until after 1 AM.  Fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot and soon Tony left for work.  I spent the morning reading the newspapers and doing my usual Friday movie downloads.  Tony picked me up to go have lunch with the guys.  Had a great lunch as usual.  Stopped off at Walgreen's on the way home to go through the drive thru and pick up a prescription for each of us.  After Tony dropped me off at home I started my yearly back up off all my files on my new 1T hard drive I bought myself as a Christmas present.  This will be the hard drive I have Tony keep at the shop with all my files, pictures, music, videos, and movies so that if the house burned down I would not loose everything.  I had a 500 Gig hard drive but that just isn't big enough anymore to hold all the files I need to save.   Made some salads and will make Tony a TV dinner for supper tonight.  The salad will be enough for me since I had a big lunch.  Will most likely spend the night watching more TV off the DVR or maybe start watching the season of Homeland.   I also have a couple episodes of a show called Time Of Death that I heard was good that played on either HBO or Showtime.  Saturday night I am having supper with my college buddies.  Should be interesting since we have not seen each other for over 30 years.  I will let you know how it goes and hopefully even get a picture of all of us at the restaurant.  No other plans this weekend.  It is suppose to get above freezing tomorrow but then a cold front comes through and highs of 5 degrees on Monday and Tuesday.  Will spend those days indoors.

December 26, 2013 Thursday Afternoon

Christmas is over.  I must say I had a very good Christmas.

Christmas Eve we went to Tony's family starting out at his mother's home.  After about an hour it started getting pretty crowded and she had no food or drink so we went over to a brothers house a few blocks away.  Spent a good couple hours playing the card game Cards Against Humanity.  I printed it out and cut the cards so we could play it.  You can download the game for free and print it out.  We all had so much fun and laughed and cried laughing so many times.  It is a very funny game to play with the right people.  Got home a little after 11 PM and opened the few presents I had bought for Tony and I.  Tony never really shops for Christmas and just has me buy what I want.  Have spent 24 years trying to get him Christmas shopping with no luck.  Watched a little TV and then went to bed which led to a round of lovin before going to sleep.

Christmas Day we were up by 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspaper and watching the Christmas parade on TV.  Left the house around 11:30 AM with Bo to go to my parents house.  Had a good time talking with the family.  Got a nice increase in the amount the parents give us for cash each year for Christmas.  Left their house around 4 PM and got home a little after 5 PM since it was snowing and the roads were getting slick.  Spent last night watching Fast And Furious 6.  I am not a fan of these movies but with the recent death of the one actor I thought we should watch it.  Was not a good movie and would have rather watched a different one.  Went to bed around 9 PM and turned off the TV shortly there after because we both were falling asleep. 

Doesn't happen often, in fact this is only the third time in almost 5 years ............. Christmas Eve I forgot to take my pills.  Noticed the next day right before leaving for my parents house.  Won't die from one night of missed pills but it does make you think about the fact that they are keeping me alive. 

Was up today by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot and soon Tony left for work.  Left the house by 10 AM to get a McDonald's breakfast sandwich and then go to the bank and deposit the Christmas check from mom and dad.  Stopped off at Pick N Save and did a little grocery shopping on the way home.  Spent the rest of the day with the dogs.  Took a nice nap this afternoon.  Making some left overs my mom gave us for supper tonight with a salad.  Will most likely spend tonight watching a movie.

December 24, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching the movie On The Road.  It was a good enough movie but hard to follow.  Movie ended around 9 PM and we went to the bedroom for a round of lovin and then went to sleep after watching the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony did not get my car fixed yesterday and it is still at the shop.  He is not happy and said he already spend two hours trying to get the hood open with no luck.  Since I was without a car for the day I spend the day doing a couple loads of laundry and some cleaning.  Spent the afternoon on the couch wrapped in a blanket with the dogs listening to music.  It is very cold in Milwaukee.   VERY COLD.  I don't think it got above 10 degrees today.  I am so tired of this cold.  I have long john's on, insulated jeans and two shirts just to try to stay warm.  Our house is over 100 years old so there are cold spots everywhere.  Tonight we will go to Tony's mom's house for Christmas Eve.  We will then tomorrow afternoon go to my parents house for Christmas Day.  Not really looking forward to tonight and cramming everyone into Tony's mom's little cluttered house.  Will enjoy tomorrow afternoon with my family at their house. 

Merry Christmas!

December 23, 2013 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we went to a Christmas party at a gay bar downtown Milwaukee.  By the time we got there around 6:30 PM the spread of food was already put out so we ordered drinks and headed for some food.  Great spread of food.  The owners put on a great Christmas party every year.  Of course there was the Colt Christmas Santa and we got a picture with him.  When the bar posts the pictures I will post them on here.  Got home before 10 PM.  Watched a little TV before we went to bed to do the lovin thing and then go to sleep.

Saturday we were up before 7 AM.  Spent the morning watching TV and reading the newspapers.  For some reason I got a USA Today weekend edition which I usually get on Friday so there was a lot of newspaper to read.  By noon we left the house to make copies or I should say have a card game called Cards Against Humanity printed out at the local printer.  The game was on talk show and when you go the website you can download and print out the game for free.  Looks like a fun game to play at Christmas with Tony's family.  We then went next door to Five Guys and had over priced hamburgers.  Jeez, two burgers, one medium French fry and one medium soda was $20.  Could have gone to McDonald's for half the price.  Came home and took a nap with the dogs which of course led to another round of lovin.  Got up, cleaned up and fed the dogs.  We soon left for another bar Christmas party my ex was having at his and his partners bar a couple blocks away.  Went to the bar and ate some bar food and had a drink.  Left by 8 PM to go home and snuggle waiting for the snow storm to arrive.  Spent the rest of the night watching the movie Insidious Chapter 2.  What a stupid horror movie.  I do not recommend this movie.  Went to sleep a little before 11 PM.

Sunday we were up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot and put on my boots to shovel a path for the dogs outside in the snow.  Snowed all Saturday night and Sunday morning.  Made a big breakfast and then headed outside to start shoveling the walkways and back alley.  Tony got in the plow truck and together we got the back alley cleaned up.  Tony then went to his shop to do some plowing as I shoveled the front walks.  Of course the tenant waited until we were done, brushed all 8 inches of snow off his car and then just moved it over.  I could have died.  I then had to get out the shovel and clean up his car snow mess.  What a fricken jerk.  Tony had to pick up a check in Racine which is normally about 45 minutes south of Milwaukee so I went along with him.  In a snow storm or right after it would take longer and did.  We left by 1 PM and got to the house by 2:30 PM.  Cars in the ditch on the expressway all the way down there.  I made Tony drive slow and in the middle lane.  I think when he started seeing all the cars in the ditch and a couple upside down in the medium he figured he better take it slow.  Got the check and drove home along the lake front instead of the expressway which was turning into a parking lot from accidents.  Stopped off at a little diner for a late lunch.  Great late lunch.  Jeez, I had the ribs special, Tony had the meat loaf special, with deserts and coffee it was less then $18.  I gave the waitress a nice tip.  Have spent a lot more and gotten a lot less or worse.  Sometimes it is worth stopping off at a little diner you have never been to before and take a chance.  Got home and spent Sunday night watching the movie The Last Stand.  Another bad movie and I would not recommend.  I actually still don't understand the ending as I type this post.   We then watched the movie A Place Beyond The Pines.  This movie was a little better but I honestly did not get the ending of this movie either.  Tony looked at me when the credits came up and said 'did I miss the ending'.   I said, 'what was the ending'.  Soon went to bed to watch some TV which turned into another round of lovin.  Wow, three times this weekend.  Sleeping by 10:30 PM.

This morning I was up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Went to Big Lots one last time to buy a few last Christmas items.  On the way home I stopped at Wendy's for chili and then Tony's shop to have him drive me home and then take my car back to the shop.  When I went to add windshield fluid today the hood would not open.  Tony could not get it open either.  The keys have stopped working also and I have to open and lock the doors manually with the keys.  So something is wrong and he will have to figure it out.  Since the car is saying 'add windshield fluid' he will have to fix it before tomorrow and the holiday.  Spent the afternoon listening to Madonna on the couch.  Making some salads and pizza for supper tonight.  Will most likely watch another movie before we go to sleep. 

I did get a nice email from my college buddy.  Was happy to hear from him.

One of the comments I received the other day asked:     ...is there a reason gay guys don't work?  is there not a job that they can do instead of living off of disability?  do you chose not to work> question.    Well, first off I know very few gay people that do not work.  Look around you.  Your wait staff.  Your hair dressers.  Your designers.  I could go on and on.  My partner works about 50 hours a week at his Auto Body shop that he has owned since he was 20 years old.  If you are really asking why 'people with HIV or AIDS' don't work the answer is because the disease and the meds we take for the disease gives us side effects that make us feel tired, throw up, dizzy and many more things.  The main reason I do not work is because with these side effects you never know from one day to the next how you will feel.  Yes, one day I might feel great and feel the top of my game only to wake up the next day, a cloudy day, and I can hardly get out of bed or I am on the toilet most of the morning with the runs or throwing up.  Actually more people I know with HIV work than do not work.  So hopefully that answers your question?   If it does not I would be happy to go into more details or direct you to the list of side effects the drugs we take carry.

December 20, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night watching an episode of American Horror Story and a couple Tosh.O shows before going to bed.  I love American Horror Story and am going to be so mad when it ends it's season soon.  Did the lovin thing, watched the local news and went to sleep by 10:30 PM.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  It was sleeting when I got up and still is raining or sleeting a little right now as I type this post.  It has hovered at freezing or about 31 degrees all day.  Met the guys for lunch and had a great lunch.  Exchanged small gifts with the guys and got some small gifts from the guys.  Took a two hour nap with the dogs this afternoon.  Tonight we are going to a Christmas Party at a gay bar here in Milwaukee.   The bar always puts out a huge spread of food and there will be a Christmas Santa.  Will go for a couple drink and some food.  One of the lunch guys works at the bar so it will be nice to see him since he was not at lunch, resting for tonight's bar party. 

No plans this weekend. It is not suppose to be nice weather and there is talk of a snow storm, so I guess we will spend most of the weekend indoors watching TV with the dogs.  Will maybe get Tony out one time to do one last Christmas present run, but for all practical purposes we are done Christmas shopping. 

Have not heard from my college buddy and I am having second thoughts about telling him about my HIV.  I think it might have been too soon and scared him off.  Time will tell.

Haven't mentioned my outdoor animal friends recently.   I still put bread out back for the possum but have not seen him in a month or so.  The birds seem to enjoy the bread in the morning.  Hoping he is hibernating and not dead.  The rabbit still is living under the front end of the Cadillac in our front yard.  It comes out daily to eat the bird seed Tony puts out daily for the birds and loves the corn cobs I wire to the fence for him / her to eat.    Nice to sit here in the window and watch the rabbit eat the corn like a typewriter.  I have not seen the last of the two mourning doves in months.  The last time I saw the last living mourning dove it was trying to eat food under the bushes from the bird feeder and all the little birds were trying to get him to move or go away.  They finally chased it away.  So sad.  I fear the mourning doves are both dead.  I actually OK with that since mourning doves mate for life and they were together for almost 2 years, had 4 sets of babies in two summers and the one remaining bird only had to live 6 months alone without the other.   I don't think it is fair for the remaining bird, animal or human to have to live alone without their mate for long.

December 19, 2013 Thursday Afternoon

Last night we spent the night watching a movie named Prisoners.  It was a very long movie but very good.  I think it clocked in at over 2 1/2 hours.  Very good movie and I recommend finding and renting to watch.  Went to sleep around 10:20 PM after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Did very little today.  It was cloudy all day and I just laid around listening to music or cruising the Internet.  Making some croutons right now in the oven.  I had a garlic loaf of bread and I thought I would try making them.  If nothing else they will be a nice snack.  Making Oncore beef patties, mashed potatoes and corn with a salad for supper tonight.  Will most likely watch another movie from the 100 or so I have on the DVR.

Read all your comments.  As much as I appreciate all the comments I do find the first one a little harsh and incorrect.  To say I have my 'own internalized homophobia/AIDS phobia' just because I am a little afraid at times to tell people I have HIV doesn't mean I am in need of a therapist.  I would rather protect myself from the hurt or rejection I might get revealing my status.  If anyone would need the therapist it would be the one not accepting me because I have HIV not me for protecting myself.  It is no different then not running down the street screaming 'I am gay, I am gay'.  In my city I might get beat up or killed.  I am not sure where you are from but please be a little less judgmental about someone needing therapy when they are really just trying to protect themselves.  I will agree with you on the fact that as of today I still have not had a bad reaction to telling anyone I was gay much less HIV.  Maybe it is all in the how and when?   Also, there might be reasons for NOT wanting to disclose you are HIV.  One example would be because one's brother would let everyone within shouting distance know and that is not what I would want.  Yes, I am living with HIV, but that does not mean I have to put it on my forehead and tell everyone.   I didn't want to go here, but it could be compared to Herpes.  If one had Herpes they would not want others knowing.  It would not be something you told someone unless you were going to sleep with them and if you did, I am pretty sure you might fear they will tell others.   Guess I just don't need the stress and it is never a good thing to have too much stress.   
I guess the fact that people will judge you on what disease you might or might not have is still around today.
Keep the comments coming so I don't feel like I am just talking to myself.
Croutons turned out great.

December 18, 2013 Wednesday Afternoon

Last night I got a friend request on Facebook from a wife of a friend I went to college with along with the guy I started talking to this past week.  He must have talked about me with this other friend and since his wife is on Facebook he reached out that way.  I friended her and then put a picture of Mark (her husband) on her Facebook page.  A short time later his son must have seen the picture and made a comment and soon we started talking.  I had to laugh so hard when I looked through his Facebook page and you can tell he is gay.  So, one of my other friends I went to college with has two sons and one is gay.  So I guess telling him I am gay will be no big deal when the time comes.  I am sure he probably knows or will figure it out quick when his wife shows him my Facebook page.  It made for an interesting night and I went to bed smiling.  Went to sleep after a round of lovin around 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Got the morning routine done and left the house by 10 AM to go to one of the local malls to do some Christmas shopping.  I go to the mall one time, one week prior to Christmas each year.  This was the day.  Ended up buying a few items.  Unfortunately I bought more for me than I did for Tony, but that's OK I guess.  Got home this afternoon around 3 PM.  Just making some Hormel dinner and noodles with a salad tonight for supper. Will most likely spend the night watching TV off the DVR. 

As I was driving to the mall I was in deep thought about an issue.  I know the rules about disclosing your HIV status when your dating or meeting new people if your single.  My dilemma is when do you disclose if your meeting old friends from your past and you all are talking about how life has turned out.  This conversation always includes all the diseases like cancer or major surgeries they have had.  I most times have to remain silent even though I think I have a pretty big medical story about my life I could tell also.  Why is it I can not talk about my HIV as freely as someone can talk about the fact they are in cancer treatment or have a heart condition?  It simply is not fair.  I am not looking for sympathy but if your having a heart to heart sharing life changing information about each other to catch up with the years and what has been going on, how can I not talk about my HIV which is a major factor in my day to day life?  I sometimes find I am silent and that then resonates that I must be in perfect health and should have nothing to complain about.  No true and not fair. 
I also have a similar problem when we get together with friends or family that do not know my HIV or the fact I get monthly disability money.  So at times when we are talking someone will ask 'so what do you do for a living'.  I then have to say I don't work.  I can sometimes see the look in peoples faces like 'what does he contribute then financially since they know Tony works full time'.  It makes me look like a leaker who just sits home sponging off my husband.  If course if I bring up the fact that I do contribute to the finances of the family through my disability monthly check I then have to disclose my HIV.  
So I guess I have two questions.  When do you disclose your HIV to friends when your meeting them after years of not seeing each other and not knowing what their life is like now?
When do you tell someone you get disability so you don't seem like a leaker who makes no money and doesn't contribute to the household?   I have found myself lying saying I get disability for 'my back' and say it is for my degenerative back disease.  Why do I have to lie?

December 17, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching some TV off the DVR and topped off the night watching Hostages in bed.  Was not a good conclusion to the storyline considering it probably will not return due to low ratings.  Wrote my buddy another email to see if I get a response and I did later in the night.  Guess he was sending email to the shop email from the website I sent him.  So my fear this time of rejection was unfounded.  Shoveled one last time the two inches we got during the night of snow before going to bed.  Went to sleep around 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Did not have a lot on my schedule for today so I decided to do what I planned on doing this Thursday.  Left the house by noon and stopped off at the grocery store for milk and salad.  Also bought some fresh potato bacon soup to take home for lunch.  Then went to ARCW to get my monthly meds for HIV and my three month prescriptions for the other meds.  Hopefully filling them in December and being a three month supply will get me through the donut hole come February for my part D insurance.  Sad we have to play these games but it is the difference of thousands of dollars if I did not have ADAP to cover the donut hole in the coverage.  Got my monthly food at the pantry which included a nice big ham for Christmas.  Spent the afternoon listening to my Ray Parker Jr collection of music.  Making some salads and TV dinners for supper tonight.  Not in the mood to cook.  Will most likely spend the night watching a movie or TV from the DVR.  Still have about 30 shows to watch and the complete season of Homeland that just finished and I have been downloading weekly. 

December 16, 2013 Monday Afternoon

Friday night when Tony got home he just wanted to relax from the day's events.  Having three of your cars side swiped can be tiring.  We spent the night watching TV from the DVR.  Went to sleep around 9:30 PM.

Saturday is snowed most of the day.  I shoveled a couple times during the day.  Got Tony to go to Walmart to do some shopping and buy more Insulin and syringes for Vito in the afternoon.  By the time we got out the door we were both mad at each other and that made the shopping experience a drag / bummer.  I was mad at Tony because he left with the plow to get gas at 11:30 AM and didn't come home for over an hour and a half, out plowing.  Once again he left his cell phone home so I could not find out where the heck he was.  Simply put, you tell me your going to get GAS I assume you are going three blocks down the street, get gas, and coming home.  Silly me thinking your going to go plow for close to two hours leaving me at home wondering where the hell you are.  Bought what we needed at Walmart which included a cake for Tony's mom for her party Sunday morning.  Came home and made a pizza for supper from Walmart.  Was actually really good.  Thin crust and very tasty.  Spent the night watching the movies The Way Way Back and Elysium.  Way Way Back was very good and could relate to the kid and how hard it is growing up.  The movie Elysium was horrible.  I can not believe Jody Foster did this movie and would expect better from her.  Hated her accent the most to be honest.  Went to bed around 10 PM exhausted from shoveling three times during the day.  Only got about 5 inches but it took all day to get it.

Sunday we were up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  We were out the door by 9:45 AM to go to the breakfast birthday party for Tony's mom.  She was surprised and it was a good time.  Amazing how screwed up some of Tony's family is and how I can't stand them.  His brother for one.  Of course when the bill came the sister in law picked up the bill and Tony put in a $20 for the tip.  I really didn't think it was necessary since there were 30 of us, we bought the $30 cake, and gave her $80 in a card.  I don't even give my parents this much.  Loser brother never pulled out the wallet and it was him and his daughter.  I hate people who take take take and never pay or give anything back.  When I mentioned the $25 gift exchange the loser brothers daughter said 'I don't like them because I always go home with a gift worse than the one I buy for someone'.  How Christmas of her.  This coming from someone who has never paid for any dinner or time together.  Went to Fleet Farm to return a dog sweater that didn't fit a dog, that we bought a couple weeks ago.  Of course I thought it worth returning a $14 anything.  Tony thought it a waste of time.  Came home and spent the rest of the day and night watching TV in the nice warm house.  It is so damn cold this December.  Watched the movie called I Do.  It was a gay themed movie and we both enjoyed it.  Went to bed around 10 PM.

This morning I was up by 5 AM with stomach cramps and on the toilet.  Must have been the grilled cheese and soup we had for supper.  Had a frustrating day.  Went to Walgreen's this morning to turn in and pick up Tony's prescription for pain pills.  Was told Walgreen's did not have them in stock and would not have them for weeks or a month.  WTF?  Walgreen's doesn't have Percocet and wont for weeks?  I was told to go to CVS.  WTF?  I don't have a CVS prescription account and neither does Tony.  When the manager told me it was because of Obama I looked at him and said 'Fuck you, it would be worse if the other guy won'.  He didn't like my comment but knew I was pissed.  Wanted to talk to me off to the side and I said I was leaving and thought Walgreen's was fucked up if it doesn't have simple pain pills and cant even tell a client when they will have them and make them go to a different pharmacy to get them.  Was told Walgreens in all of Milwaukee is out of Percocet.  WTF?  Ended up going home empty handed.  Called Tony and soon got him home so I could ride with him and pick it up at St Mary's pharmacy.  I knew where to park for free and run in and get the prescription at the hospital so I rode with him.  Heck a hospital pharmacy has to have them right?  Believe it or not, the hospital pharmacy only had 40 left in stock and that was half the prescription.  Wow.  So they told Tony to come back tomorrow.  They said they would have more tomorrow.  Have you ever heard of this crap.  A shortage of Percocet?  Spent the rest of the afternoon having a nice long talk on the phone with mom.  We understand each other and had a nice hour long talk.  She thinks maybe I should look into volunteering after the first of the year somewhere so I feel like I have a purpose.  I agree and am going to see what I can find.  I need something.  I just feel frustrated, overwhelmed, mean, angry, and not a nice person.  I have to find out why.  Might be because being a house husband is a very un satisfying experience lately.   Making a Hormel dinner and mac and cheese for supper with the salad.  Will most likely watch TV off the DVR tonight before we go to bed.
Still no email from my college buddy.  Will email him tonight and see if I hear from him.

December 13, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Yesterday was another very cold day in Milwaukee.  It was 1 degree when I got up at 6:30 AM and only got to 12 degrees by the middle of the day.  I spent the day just laying around listening to music snuggled under blankets with the dogs.  Made spaghetti for supper and spent the night watching Greys Anatomy and a couple other shows off the DVR.  Went to bed around 10:20 PM after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent early morning reading the newspapers and doing my usual Friday movie downloads.  Went to Walgreen's around 10 AM to get a prescription and a couple other sale items.  Had an extra coupon for a one day 15% off so it was a good deal at Walgreen's today.  Came home and like I usually do I called Tony at 11:30 AM to remind him of lunch with the guys.  He took a deep breath and silence.  When I asked what was up he said I would not believe it.  Again, an uninsured unlicensed driver lost control of his car in front of Tony's shop this morning and side swiped one customer car and three of our cars before he finally came to a stop a block away, only because his front tire came off.  Son of a bitch would have just kept going.  Of course no insurance and this will all be on us again.  I am getting so tired of this.  I went to the shop and took a few pictures before I headed to lunch without him since he was busy talking with the police.  Here is a pic of the cars side swiped.

As you can see one of the cars is the yellow Mustang that Tony still hasn't gotten around to fixing the front end damage from a month or so ago when an uninsured lady pulled out in front of him.  I once again told Tony if he buys any more cars he might find himself single.  We don't need all the cars he owns and they just cost us money.  As you can see one is an old Cadillac he restored. 
Had a nice lunch with the guys and then went to Big Lots to get some small Christmas presents for the guys and such to pass out next week at lunch.  I always buy something small to pass everyone under $10. 
I am now waiting for the snow to start falling.  Suppose to start any time now and continue through all day Saturday.  Should end up with about 7 inches of lake effect snow when it is done tomorrow night.  Yuck.  Sunday we have a birthday breakfast with Tony's mom.  It is her 80th.  Everyone is surprising her when we take her to breakfast on Sunday.  She will be very surprised.  No other plans which is good since I have a feeling the weekend will be filled with a lot of snow shoveling.

I have not heard back from my college friend since we talked two days ago.  I am trying not to read to much into it and will give it a couple more days and write a short email and see if I get a response.  No big deal either way since I haven't seen him in 30 years.  Just the same, it does hurt if it is the AIDS thing that stopped the conversation dead in it's tracks.   Have no way to take it back.  Kind of wish I would have followed rule number one:   Be careful who you tell.

December 11, 2013 Wednesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching the movie Grabbers.  It was a cheap horror film.  Sometimes, like this movie, it is best not to see the monster until later in the movie.  Sometimes seeing the monster ruins the movie because it is so cheap looking and silly.  This was one of those movies.  Spent the last hour or so in bed watching What Would You Do before turning off the TV after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left the house around 7:30 AM with instructions to spend as little time outside as possible.  It is down right horribly cold outside here in Milwaukee.  The temperature right now is 8 degrees at 3:30 PM.  Tonight we are suppose to go down to a wind chill of 25 below zero.  This is way too cold for December.  We get this in January.  What is January and February going to be like?  Showered and bundled up good so I could leave the house.  Got breakfast at McDonalds and then went to Pick N Save to do the weekly grocery shopping.  Bought way more than I wanted and couldn't believe it was over $100.  I figured since I don't want to leave the house I have to buy groceries and cook?  Spent the day listening to ELO and doing things around the house.  Making a couple TV dinners and salads for supper tonight.  I bought a bunch on sale so we will be having TV dinners for a while here and there.  
I don't mind having the tenants dog down by us and would rather it play down here then see it sitting outside waiting for someone to bring it in from outside in this cold.  I am not going to punish a dog for it's parents bad behavior. 
I got a friend request from a guy I went to college with.  I then said Hi and we have been communicating.  Feeling a little stressed because I broke one of my own rules - Be careful who you tell about your HIV.  He wrote me a long message about his life and the heart problems he is having and will need a new heart to survive once they cure the cancer just found.  When I typed out a long message reply I talked about my life and told about my HIV.  It is just amazing how someone doesn't really have to think twice about telling someone about heart, cancer or diabetes, but if your HIV you can't talk about it without wondering if you will ever talk to that person again.  Such a terrible stigma with HIV.  Oh well.  Since I haven't seen him in 30 years I probably won't in another 30 years.  With that said, it would be nice to reconnect as friends again.  Just sad how you have to think twice about telling your HIV status.  Should be interesting when and if I get a reply.  I did hang with him and a few others for my four years in college and he was a good friend through those years.  Sad how life takes people in different directions.  Since I was pretending to be straight in college, when I left college I just dropped ties with anyone from that time.  Life was so different back then.  It has come a long way. 
Will most likely spend the night watching another movie and try to stay warm.

December 10, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

Last night we watched the movie called The Apparition.  It was a horror movie and was entertaining enough.  Spent the last hour in bed watching Hostages and then went to sleep around 10:20 PM, after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Another very cold day in Milwaukee today.  When I got up the temperature was 1 degree.  It did get to about 15 degrees today by this afternoon.  Still too cold to go outside unless you have to.  I had no reason to leave the house and didn't.  Did some cleaning and reading of magazines today.  Spent the afternoon listening to some 70s disco music.  Late this afternoon the tenants dog came down to play.  Here is a video of Stella and Dessa playing this afternoon.

Making some chicken cordon bleu for supper with rice and a salad.  Will most likely spend the night watching another movie.  I figure if we watch one a night we might get through the 100 or so I have on the computer that I have downloaded. 

December 9, 2013 Monday Afternoon

Spent Friday night watching a couple episodes of American Horror Story before going to sleep around 10 PM.

Saturday we were up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Cold day in Milwaukee with a high of only 16 degrees.  We did go to State Fair Park for their annual Rummage O Rama of junk.  Ended up walking around for an hour and buying some stuff for the house.  Stopped off for a late lunch at one of our favorite Mexican restaurants on our way home.  Spent Saturday night watching the movies The Big Wedding and All The Boys Love Mandy Lane.  Both were good movies and we stayed awake until about 11 PM watching them.  Went to bed and after a little lovin we went to sleep.

Sunday we were again up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Started snowing around 10 AM and snowed all day.  We ended up getting about 5 inches by the time it ended late Sunday night.  We spent the day watching TV.  Tony never left the house.  I did walk to the store and get lottery tickets around noon and then walked there again later because I had a taste for nachos and dip.  I also went out and shoveled the snow a couple times.  Spent Sunday night watching the movie Hangover Part 3.  It was good enough.  Watched The Mentalist in bed and went to sleep when it was over.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Spent the morning doing laundry.  All the bedding and dog blankets around the house.  Takes four loads of laundry to get it all done.  Got a lot of paperwork taken care of also, one being requesting a pay off statement for the house.  I plan on paying off the house by Christmas this year.  Spent the afternoon on the couch listening to music.  Will most likely watch a movie tonight.  Making a Hormel meat loaf and mashed potatoes with the salad for supper tonight.

December 6, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night watching the live performance on NBC of The Sound Of Music.  I enjoyed it and was glad we watched it.  Was a bit different from the movie version.  Went to sleep around 10:20 PM after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work by 7:30 AM.  Spent the morning reading the newspapers and playing with the dogs.  Since it was only in the teens today I had Tony pick me up on his way to lunch with the guys so I wouldn't have to start my car and go out in the cold.  It is 18 degrees outside right now.  Tomorrow is suppose to be the same so I am sure we will stay indoor and watch a lot of TV this weekend.  Tony is sometimes out in this cold writing estimates so he will not want to go back out in it unless it is for food and drinks.  Will make some TV dinners for supper tonight since we had a big lunch with the guys and we are not that hungry come supper time.  Will most likely spend tonight catching up on the DVR since we have a couple episodes of American Horror Story and Walking Dead to watch along with about 30 other shows.  If we run out of TV I have a lot of movies we could watch.  I am sure the only reason we will leave the house this weekend will be to get food if I decide not to cook.

December 5, 2013 Thursday Afternoon

Spent last night watching a movie named C.O.G.   Stood for Child Of God.  It was a good movie about a guy taking a break from life and learning how the other side lives.  Kept us both awake for the whole movie so it had to be good.  Went to bed around 9 PM and watched an hour of TV in bed before going to sleep around 10:30 PM.

This morning I was up by 6 AM.  The ribs from last night's supper were giving my stomach cramps and had to get out of bed and on the toilet.  I love Ribs but they don't seem to like me the next day.  Soon fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the morning cleaning, vacuuming and doing a couple loads of laundry.  This afternoon I settled in with a blanket and the dogs and watched a movie a download a couple years ago from 2011 named Funkytown.  It was a very good movie but it was about 25% in French.  I did figure out about 10% of what they were saying so I didn't miss much of the movie.  Took place in the late 70s during the Disco days and was about the lives of some people and how they all wove together.  I enjoyed the movie and glad I watched it.  It ended in the 80s with one of the guys going to the doctor for a cough and then showed a sore on his shoulder.  Of course we all know what this was....AIDS.   The movie ended there.  Loved the music in the movie and it sure brought back some fun memories of nights on the dance floor.  It is in the 20s today in Milwaukee and partly cloudy.  Cold enough to not go outside unless I have to.  No need to go out so I stayed in all day.  Did take out the garbage and picked up dog poop but that was the extent of being outside today.   Making left over spaghetti for supper tonight for Tony.  I will have a TV dinner and a salad.  Will most likely watch the play Sound Of Music tonight on NBC.  Seen the movie many many times and the play should be just as good.  Will DVR most the other shows on other channels as we watch SOM. 

December 4, 2013 Wednesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching the movie White House Down.  We both enjoyed the movie.  Any movie Tony doesn't fall asleep watching must be worth seeing.  LOL.   It was a good movie from start to finish.  Went to bed around 10 PM and went to sleep after a round of lovin.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  It was foggy and drizzled all day today in Milwaukee.  Damp wet miserable day and about 40 degrees.  I did go to the post office this morning to get the tenants check.  Why I had to make this extra step is really bothering me.  I saw the guy in the hallway last night and he asked if I got the check in the mail.  When I told him No but I got a 'sorry we missed you slip' and will have to now go to the post office to get the check, he said nothing.  Like OK you will have your check then.  I have not seen the girl upstairs since our argument on Monday.  I actually like it this way but wish the tension was gone.  Stopped at Burger King for a ham cheese croissant and then went to the bank to put the checks in the bank account.  Came home and spent the day doing things around the house while I listened to 70s disco music.  Making BBQ ribs, baked potato and a salad for supper tonight.  Will most likely watch another movie tonight after we watch last night Chelsea Lately that I record each night.  We both love this show and wish I would have found it years ago.  We laugh so hard sometime watching her. 

December 3, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

Spent last night watching a few episodes of Long Island Medium and then finished the night watching the TV show Hostages in bed.  Went to sleep around 10:20 PM after the local news.  The guy tenant did call around 9 PM to 'see how I was doing'.  He called seeming all concerned about whether I was OK or not because 'I had such a bad morning'.  I said 'I am fine, thanks for asking, have a good night' and ended the call.  I really have not much to say to them and I would rather not even see or talk to them right now. 

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot before Tony walked out the door to go to work.  Reminded him to call me after his morning eye doctor appointment.  He has very bad vision and is hoping this new eye doctor can take care of the cadderac (spell check is not helping me on this word) in his eye.  Got a call from Tony a few hours into the morning very frustrated and almost in tears over the fact the eye doctor said they can't fix his eyes.  He reads the morning paper with glasses and a magnifying glass.  He damaged one eye in is 20s and really only has the one other eye with the cadderac.   He is not a happy guy.  It rained all day in Milwaukee.  I felt depressed and just wanted to sleep and went back to bed until about 11 AM.  I then got up and showered and went to the grocery store.  Had to get out of the house.  Of course while I was gone the tenants overnight delivered rent check arrived with a note on the mailbox 'sorry we missed you'.  I can go to the post office tomorrow and pick it up.  What a bunch of bullshit.  Now I have to go get the other half of my rent check I should have had on Sunday.  Spent the afternoon reading magazines and feeling down.  I am not sure if it is the rain or the tenants or a combination of the two.  Just feel down and depressed.  Making spaghetti and meatballs for supper tonight with salads.  Will spend the night watching a movie since there is not much on TV these days.  I will save what is on the DVR for another day to watch.  Would be happy to just crawl under the covers and go to bed right now to be honest.  Still raining and cold outside and I just can't seem to get warm.  Feeling chilled to the bone.  Not good since it was in the 40s today and the temperature is just dropping from this point forward.  Suppose to only be a high in the teens this weekend.  BRR.

December 2, 2013 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we spent the night watching the movies Petunia and The Conjuring.  Both were great movies.  Went to bed around 10 PM for a little lovin before we went to sleep.

Saturday we were up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the morning watching home improvement shows on TV.  Around noon we went to Hamburger Mary's for a burger.  Had a great lunch and then went to Target to look around and maybe do some Christmas shopping.  Discovered rather quickly that this was not a good day to shop, the day after good Friday, because nothing was on sale.  I am not going to pay full price for anything this time of year.  Ended up leaving with only a handful of items and less than $30.   Came home and spent the night watching Curse of Chucky and Iron Man 3.  Both were entertaining enough but liked the movies we watched the prior night better.  Went to sleep around 10:30 PM.

Sunday we again were up by 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Read a little of the morning newspaper and then showered and headed out the door to pick up Tony's mom and go have breakfast.   After breakfast we dropped her off at her home and then went to Farm and Fleet to do more Christmas shopping.  Ended up spending almost $300 with most of the items being for Tony (3 pairs of work pants and a car battery charger).   The things I picked out were less than $100 and all will get wrapped for Christmas.  Came home and spent the night watching TV.  Sunday night we watched the movie Grown Ups 2.  What a waste of time watching this movie.  I can not believe some of these people even signed on to such a stupid movie.  Went to sleep after The Good Wife.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work by 7:30 AM.  Ended up getting in a big argument with my tenants this morning. 
Long story short. 
Last night I called to find out where the rent check was.  Was told by the guy that they only had half the rent.  I told them that would not due and they would need to come up with the rest of the rent by Monday (today) and would expect the rent sometime that day.  Well I still had no check as of 10 AM today and it is now December 2nd.  A little after 10 AM she called to see if I would be around so she could give me the rent check.  I told her to leave it on the steps outside my door so I didn't have to deal with her.  A little while later I went to get the check and it was only for half the rent.  Now I had just told her man I would not accept half the rent last night on the phone.  It pissed me off in the memo line she wrote 'December 2013 rent'.  Well, this is only half the rent and if I cash this check it is like they paid the rent in full.  So I called her to get the same excuse that they didn't have the rest of the rent.  Not even saying when they would have the rest.  I started getting mad and maybe said some things I should have kept to myself.  Anyway, when she threw the 'we have 5 days after the first to pay' I lost it.  All I have done for them and she now plays the 'we have 5 days' card.  I told her the lease says the first.  We argued for a while and then she hung up on me.  I went upstairs and pounded on the door and she would not open it.  I then gave her some choice words add 'and you wonder why we can not be friends when you pull this crap on the 2nd of the month'.   If you remember she last week or so wanted to know why we couldn't be friends.  Well this is why.  Because it is a business agreement and not a friendship.  I felt taken advantage of after all I have done for them.  Hell I have spent more money upstairs on remodeling for them and will not collect anything profit for it until February as they pay rent.  I could have handled it better but .... I didn't.  So now I want nothing to do with them and just wish they would move.  The boyfriend called a while later, I gave him some choice words and hung up on him.  He called back a while later to tell me his mother would be sending a check overnight and we would have the rest of the money by the 4th. 
I simply do not like having someone tell me on the 2nd of the month that they don't have the money for the rent they should have technically paid yesterday.  If they were short they could have told me a few days ahead so I could plan and move money around for the house payment that comes out on the 4th of the month.  I still have to make my damn house payment. 
So I really handled the whole situation badly.  Lately any problem sets me off.  I can not handle any stress or anything that rocks the cart so to speak.  Not sure why but I have to get this in check. 
Went across the alley to talk with the neighbor and get her take on the situation.  She said I was fine with what I did and they will now know from this point forward to make sure I have the rent on the 1st.  Hell, I should not have to ask for the rent each month and have had to every month they have been here.  It makes me feel uncomfortable and I just shouldn't have to.  I know its the first, they should also, right?   Go ahead, tell me 'I told you so'. 

November 29, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Had a great day with the family for Thanksgiving.  We got to my parents house before 1 PM and didn't get home until about 5:30 PM.  We took Bo with us and he played the entire time with anyone who would play with him.  He cried the entire way out to my parents house sitting on my lap.  Such a baby.  Once he got to my parents house he was happy.  Mom made two turkeys and I think I ate way too much.  Was very good.  Had great conversation with the family and got some nice pictures.  Spent last night watching Jeff Dunham specials on Comedy channel.

This morning we were up at 7 AM to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspapers and watching TV.  Met the guys for lunch and had a great lunch since most of us were off work we had a long lunch and laughed our butts off.  Came home and after an hour we had to load Stella and Bo in the car to take them to the vet for a nail trim.  Got Stella's anal glands cleaned also.  We could hear Bo crying the entire time in the back room getting his nails trimmed.  He was not in pain, just a very vocal dog.  We have spent the rest of the afternoon watching some car shows Tony enjoys.  I've had about enough and when I am done with this post the channel will get changed to a TV show we both can enjoy.  We might go out for a fish fry tonight.  Right now I still am not hungry from the lunch.  No plans the rest of the weekend.  Tony's sister decided not to do a turkey on Saturday so that really left us with no plans.  I am happy with no plans.

November 27, 2013 Wednesday Afternoon

Last night we arrived at the fundraiser around 5:30 PM like I had planned.  Walked around for an hour an a half and sampled food from different restaurants around Milwaukee.  My favorites were the cheese ravioli, the chocolate cupcakes and the whiskey ice cream.  Went back a couple times for a sample.  Then there was a show called White Christmas for all of us to enjoy.  It was a musical and very entertaining.  Unfortunately I took my pills about half way through 'sampling' and have 2 glasses of wine, and my stomach felt horrible.  I wasn't sure if I was going to throw up, fart, or have the runs so we left at intermission.  Figured better to be safe than sorry and Tony was ready to go home and go to sleep from working all day.  Got home in time to watch the final results for Dancing With The Stars.  I am happy with the outcome.  Went to sleep around 10:20 PM after the local news.

This morning I was awake by 6 AM, waking in Tony's arms.   Of course that always leads to one thing ... so we did the lovin thing before he got out of bed to get ready for work.  I got up a little while later to feed the dogs and give Vito his shot.  Around 8 AM I was petting Vito on the couch.  He was laying on his back and I was scratching his stomach when I saw a flee run across his stomach.  DAMN!  The dogs are hardly ever outside and we have no grass for them to get them from.  All three small dogs got flee baths.  Stella will get one tonight when Tony showers.  I then spent the rest of the day doing laundry of all the bedding and blankets they lay in around the house.  Went to McDonald's around 10:30 AM for breakfast and then headed to Big Lots to buy a few items for Christmas that I saw in the sale flyer.  I then went to the post office to mail my envelope with my coupon book for part D insurance to ADAP for them to pay my monthly premiums.  After the post office I went to Pick N Save in Shorewood and did a light grocery shopping not buying much since I don't plan on cooking much in the near future and the house is stocked with food.  Bought some flowers to take to moms house tomorrow for Thanksgiving also.  Came home and continued with the laundry.  I did buy some flee medicine for the dog upstairs also.  I figured no sense washing all mine if the flees are coming from their dog.   I then spend the afternoon listening to my favorite 70s disco on my ITunes that I have in my collection.  Over a hundred I have load on ITunes from my hard drive.  I have hundreds more that I downloaded during the Napster hay day.  Sure brings back memories of having more energy and dancing the night away as I listen to each song.  Each song I can see myself or picture what makes this song important and mean something.  Would be nice to relive those days knowing what I know now.  I would have just had fun knowing I was going to be OK in the future and would have the man and life of my dreams.  Would have not worried so much and just enjoyed the moment.  Making a canned ham and baked potatoes with a salad for supper tonight.  We will spend the night watching TV and not go anywhere since we have been out the last two nights.  Tomorrow we will go to my mom and dad's for Thanksgiving lunch.  It will be fun to see most of the family.  MOST.  LOL.  Tony is not working then the rest of the weekend which is rare.  I made a vet appointment for Stella and Bo to go at 2:30 PM Friday so we can both take them together.  Will be a nice laid back weekend I think with the dogs.  Saturday afternoon we do have another Thanksgiving dinner at Tony's sisters house so by the end of the weekend I will not want Turkey for a while.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!  
I feel blessed to have everything I have.

November 26, 2013 Tuesday Morning

Last night Tony and I went to an anniversary party for a bar here in Milwaukee.  The owners are a very nice couple and one of the guys we have lunch with works at the bar.  Got there around 6:30 PM and we were home around 9 PM.  Had two drinks and a lot of finger food.  For this party they had two hot guys in g strings walking around with trays of finger food.  Non stop array of food all night long.   I must say I tried many of the foods just because the guy who brought them was so hot.  We left before the comedian came onstage at 9 PM.  We are getting old when 9 PM is even too late to be out.  LOL.  Was happy to get home and in the warm house.  Went to sleep after Castle.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspapers and talked with a new friend I met on this blog on the phone for a while.  I have met so many nice people through this blog.  It is cold again in Milwaukee.  Of course your probably going to hear that for the next four months or so.  It is below 30 degrees and I am not leaving the house today until tonight.  Tony will be home early tonight to shower and put on our suits for a fundraiser.  The AIDS center holds their yearly fundraiser and I get tickets for the two of us because I am on the client advisory board.  It is a fun event and I am happy I get the tickets.  They always put on a classy event and we always have a good time.  It is at the Performing Arts Center and there is even a play after the food part of the fundraiser.  Should be a fun long night.  Hope to feed the dogs a bit early and be at the event by 5:30 PM.  Will be a long night for the dogs alone, but they will just have to deal with it.  I like these events because we will both be dressed up in our suits looking all handsome and nice.  Only other times we get this dressed up is for a funeral lately so it is nice to have a happy event to wear a suit and tie.  Going to make a can of soup for lunch and take a nap with the dogs this afternoon.  That is the plan for the day.  I will get all the other things done tomorrow.  Figure if I have to leave the house for grocery shopping tomorrow I will get a lot of other things done at the same time.  The construction across the street is going full steam ahead.  They are working on the foundation for the final 8 units right in front of my house.  Just a damn shame it is 28 degrees outside and all I can see is their faces through their jackets since they are all bundled up.  Would have been nice to see some skin while they work.  Guess I am out of luck.  Hard to tell the handsome ones from the not so handsome ones, much less what they look like because they are all bundled up.

November 25, 2013 Monday Morning

It was very cold in Milwaukee last weekend and we did very little outside the house because of it.  Neither of us like going out in the cold and it just seems to get worse as we get older.  Saturday we never left the house.  Spent all day watching TV or movies.  Took a nice nap and did the loving thing Saturday afternoon.  Ordered a lasagna and garlic bread for supper delivered.  Spent Saturday night watching the gay Internet series Hunting Season, which was very good.  Eight short 10 minute episodes.  Was very good and I look forward to more episodes online.  We also watched the movie We Are The Millers.  I liked the movie and laughed many times.  Was pretty much what I expected of the movie and my expectations were low.  Went to bed Saturday night around 10 PM and watched half of SNL in bed before going to sleep.

Sunday morning we were up by 7 AM.  Made breakfast and spent the morning reading the newspaper and watching TV.  It was so cold again and never got out of the 20s.  Watched the movies Red 2 and Triple Crossed.  Triple Crossed was a gay themed thriller and it was very good.  I recommend finding the movie Triple Crossed.  Didn't hurt that the guys were hot as hell and there were some very hot sex scenes.  Red 2 was entertaining enough.  We left the house around 4 PM to get the weekly lottery tickets and have supper at a local restaurant here on the Eastside.  Had soup and sandwich.   Spent the night watching Amazing Race, Good Wife and Mentalist.  Went to sleep after the Mentalist and a little lovin.

This morning we woke to snow coming down.  We got about 2 inches and it has finally stopped.  It is so cold and I keep wondering how long I can live here in Wisconsin with these Winters and the cold.  Spent the morning putting more Christmas decorations out since the falling snow put me in the mood.  Going to take a nap soon because tonight we have plans to go to a party at a local bar for their anniversary.  The bar puts out a great spread of food.  Will have a couple drink, enjoy some friends company, eat some good food, and come home.  Not looking forward to going out in the cold tonight but I can not live my entire life indoors for the next four or more months. 

Of course the tenant came knocking on the door Saturday afternoon to apologize for the day before when she came down drunk.  I told her not to let it bother her 'but maybe you should consider not drinking'.   Tony and I talked and all your concerns in posts are valid and we are going to set boundaries.  If she wants to talk or something I will either say 'now is not a good time' or go up by her so I can leave when I need to.   Evicting them is not an option since they have done nothing to be evicted for at this point.  I honestly think she hates being home all day with their kid and thought I was going to be her bff all day when they moved in.  No such thing going to happen since I enjoy my time alone with my dogs and don't plan on spending time with her or developing a friendship.  I also think she is bipolar. 

November 22, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Thursday I spent the morning doing things around the house.  Did a few loads of laundry and cleaning.  Started unpacking some of the Christmas decorations.  Had an afternoon Client Advisory Meeting with ARCW and was home by 3:30 PM.  Had a good meeting.  Spent last night watching a few shows off the DVR and Greys Anatomy before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Read the morning newspaper and downloaded a movie.  My insurance guy called around 10 AM to tell me the Healthcare website was working good and I should try to get Tony set up.  I got approved the other day via a phone call for my new part D.  Tony will need new insurance starting the first of the year also.  Got Tony all signed in with a user name and password.  I then was told by our insurance agent I should have entered a higher amount for his income since he will make more next year and we do not want to get Medicaid.  I am not going to pay back his Medicaid after we get married and if he should die.  Yes, you have to pay back Medicaid from the estate.   Most do not know that.  So I don't want the government taking money from me after he dies just because we got married.  My insurance agent made a phone call and it should all be updated in three days.  Another flaw in the system is once you enter information you can not change it on the website, you have to call them to make the change.  Had lunch with the guys.  Had a great lunch as usual on Friday with the guys.  We all are signing up for new insurance and going through this together so it is nice to see where each stands and some shortcuts along the way.  Came home and put on some music an laid back on the couch.  A little time later I got a call from the upstairs tenant wanting to come down and talk.  I swear to god the next hour was an hour out of the twilight zone.  She had obviously been drinking and I hate talking to drunks.  Jeez, its is 2:30 in the afternoon and she has a 6 month old.  He boyfriend was home and soon came down and came into the house on his own.  After an hour of the strangest conversation she got up and 'had to go'.   So her, her boyfriend, the baby and dog all head out the back door.  As I close the door I notice a half drank beer on the counter.  Believe it or not before the boyfriend came into the living room he helped himself and downed a half a beer before entering the living room.  Who does this?   Boundaries will be set from this point forward.  Wow.  When she was down here she was telling me how my dogs should be acting.  She was telling me I should do more with my life.  She was telling me I should be more happy if I did more.  I finally had to say 'hey, I am happy, if your not, don't put it on my'.  Then she was like 'you don't like us do you'.  WTF?  It honestly felt like I entered the twilight zone.  Who just gets a beer and drinks half, hides it, and leaves?   Plus she brought down a can of beer and I had to put a napkin under it four times, each time she would set it down, spilling, and not on the napkin.  WTF?  I just talked to Tony to tell him the story.  This will not happen again.  I have had to spray air freshener twice since they left to get that drunk breath smell out of the house.  Deep breath.  Will most likely make some soup and a pot pie for supper tonight since we had a big lunch.  No plans this weekend and it is suppose to be the coldest weather so far this year, so we will most likely spend a lot of time at home and not go outside.  We both hate the cold.  Still shaking my head from this afternoon's tenant encounter.  The reason for me wanting to get a monitor for the tenants is so they can see when their dog is ready to come in so I don't have to bring it in daily as they leave her out in the cold for too long.  Hoping if they see her sitting at the back door ready to come in they will come down and get her.  Hoping!

November 20, 2013 Wednesday Afternoon

Monday night half way through microwaving a Hormel beef roast the microwave stopped working.  Everything was plugged in and all so I had to figure it broke.  Never had a microwave just stop working.  Used the tenants microwave to finish cooking.  Spent the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before doing the lovin thing and then going to sleep. 

Tuesday morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Read a little of the morning newspaper and soon showered and headed out the door to go to Menard's.  Since I still had to return the flooring I bought the prior week I figured I would start there looking for a microwave.  I can not live without a microwave.  Returned the flooring and found the perfect microwave on sale for only $58.  Drove home and got the microwave out of the box and plugged in.   Looks and works perfectly.  I was also looking for VGA cables and stopped at Office Max only to see they were very expensive and not long enough.  I need them at least 15 feet.  Got home and called Milwaukee PC to find out they have VGA 15 foot cables and for a reasonable cost.  I need the cables because the four way splitter I bought for the security system monitors arrived last week and now trying to get all the monitors connected around the house.  I now have security monitors in the bedroom, kitchen and living room so I can see outside and around the house pretty much no matter where I am in the house.  Yah, this is what people with too much time on their hands do.  The fourth split will be a cable going upstairs so the tenants can see the back doors and around the yard also.  I have to wait for and figure out how I am going to drill holes and what cables to use to get the monitor upstairs for them.  Made BBQ ribs, potatoes and green beans with a salad for supper.  Spent the night watching the CBS TV lineup and then David Blaine magic special.  I honestly love to hate watching the magic shows.  How the hell does he do the tricks he does?  It drives me crazy.  Went to sleep after the local news around 10:20 PM.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Didn't sleep well all night.  Was cold one minute, sweating the next.  Woke up with bowel pain and was not a good first hour after getting up this morning.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Drilled a hole in the floor upstairs to have it come through the ceiling in the bathroom.  Was not where I thought it would come through at all.  Was way off.  Tony will not be happy.  Decided to just break down and buy the last cables I need on the Internet because the are 'spliced' cables and only need a very small pen size hole for the wires rather than a monitor connector size hole.   I can't be putting any more holes in the ceilings or Tony will kill me.  LOL.  Went to Pick N Save near downtown for this weeks grocery shopping.  Came home and after I put everything away I drove back to Milwaukee PC to buy another VGA cable and connector to put a monitor a little farther into the living room for viewing.  Got home and figured it would be one of the last walks for a while because of the cold and rain, and went for a long walk along the river trails.  Had a nice walk and felt good to get out and get exercise.  Making spaghetti and salads for supper tonight.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV from the DVR before going to sleep.

November 18, 2013 Monday Afternoon

First off I would like to apologize for the pop up ad that comes up when you view my posts.  I did not sign up for advertising and have stayed away from having advertising on my blog.  Blogger must be doing this on their own.  Sorry for the inconvenience.  Shame on you Blogger.com.

Friday night we spent the night watching TV from the DVR.  We do get pretty caught up on everything we record on the weekends.  Went to sleep around 10 PM.

Saturday we were up by 7 AM.  There are days like this when it would be so nice to just sleep in in the morning.  If it were not for having to give Vito some Insulin and food as close to 12 hours apart, we would have stayed in bed.  Got up and fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  By this time we are awake and the coffee is dripping, so going back to bed is not an option.  Spent the morning watching home improvement TV shows.  We went to see the 1:30 PM showing of Dallas Buyers Club in the afternoon.  It was a very good movie.  I feel it is my duty, or must, to learn about all the people who came before me and died in order for the drugs that keep me alive today.  So sad when you sit back and think that all those people in the movie are dead from HIV now.  It just is not fair.  AZT killed so many good people.  Was a very good movie and wish it got wider release and viewing.  (Noticed the movie was not even in the top 10 this morning from over the weekend).  Came home and ordered a pizza delivered for supper.  Spent the night watching more TV from the DVR doing a good job of clearing half that was recorded.  Went to sleep around 10:30 PM after the local news.

Sunday it was in the 60s when we woke up at 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Was a strange morning and afternoon weather wise.  By 11 AM it was 65 degrees and the tornado sirens were going off.  Tornadoes around Illinois and Wisconsin.  Of course I was on the back second floor deck looking for the funnel clouds.  Thankfully we just got heavy rain, some hail at one point, and strong winds.  It did rain most of the day and I made it to the corner grocery store for lottery tickets and home, just in time for a down pour as I got to the back door.  Went to Walgreen's around 4 PM to pick up a prescription for Tony and some sale items before we walked across the street and had supper at George Webb's.  Spent the night watching Amazing Race, The Good Wife and The Mentalist before going to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs, gave Vito his shot and said goodbye to Tony as he walked out the door for work.  Did very little today.  A cold front came through late yesterday after the storms and it got just above freezing today.  Very windy making it feel even colder.  Figured I would not leave the house.  Moved all the Christmas decorations out of the basement in in the spare bedroom.  Will start putting them out soon.  Heck, Thanksgiving is next week already.  Took a nice nap with the dogs this afternoon.  Could have just slept or stayed in bed all day today the way I feel.  Making a beef roast, mashed potato and corn with salads for supper tonight.  Will spend the night watching Dancing With The Stars and Castle before we go to sleep.

I need to find a purpose.  I can't keep wasting my days away like this.

November 15, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Spent last night catching up on the past two episodes of American Horror Story.  As much as I like this show I did like the past two seasons better.  Went to bed around 9 PM and after a little lovin I watched a couple episodes of Everyone Love Raymond and went to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work around 7:30 AM and soon returned looking for his eye glasses.  We could not find them and had no idea where they went since he used them to read the newspaper this morning but now can not figure where they are.  He left for work without his glasses.  Downloaded a few movies and read the newspapers.  Met the guys for lunch and had a great lunch.  Tony said he still had not found his glasses and said they must be at home somewhere. I told him I looked everywhere but would look again when I got home and he left to go back to work.  My ex then met everyone at 1 PM to talk insurance.  What a mess.  Now Obama and Walker are extending for 3 months.  I would still need to change my Part D to be something covered by ADAP which when I do the medicare.gov website it tells me AARP is the best.  So I filled out the paperwork to change my part d to AARP.  Went to Piggly Wiggly and bought a few grocery items and came home.  Looked all over the house for Tony's glasses and then thought about what his final steps would be like before he walked out the door.  I thought 'he always has a pile of tissue that he throws away, maybe he throw his glasses away in the trash with the tissue'?   I dug down deep into the garbage can and sure enough pulled out his glasses from this mornings coffee grinds.  Wow, I guess after 25 years I know him well.  It was in the 50s today which seemed like a heat wave considering the 30s we had been having, so I went for a long walk along the river trails.  Had a great walk.  As I type this I am watching the construction workers lay the cement foundation on the north driveway side of the last complex in front of my house.  Won't be long until a three story building is directly in front of the house blocking my morning sunrise.  Will make a light supper tonight and spend the night watching TV from the DVR.  No plans this weekend other than to see the movie Dallas Buyers Club.  Hopefully we will return the flooring at Menard's sometime this weekend too so I have that off my credit card. 

November 14, 2013 Thursday Afternoon

Spent yesterday morning cleaning and dusting the house.  It never got above freezing again yesterday in Milwaukee so I decided to spend the day indoors.  Spent the afternoon listening to music and doing things around the house.  Late in the afternoon I decided to try to install the new garbage disposal I bought the day before.  You would think projects like this would be simple.  Had to call Tony home at one point to get the current drain out of the sink.  He ended up having to bend the hell out of it just to remove it.  How the heck we got it on we have no clue.  He then went back to work and I continued installing the disposal.  Took me until 4 PM and at times I was going to give up.  I simply do not have the strength and projects seem to overwhelm me.  I sat there at times almost in tears thinking 'why can't I do this'.  I did get it done by pushing myself each time I stopped.  I was proud to get it all attached only to have it not go on.  In all the jiggling to get it attached one of the wires disconnected so I had to take all the plumbing apart, remove it, fix the wire, and put it all back together again .... with no leaks.  It works and it doesn't leak so I guess I did the job.  Any project lately is too big it seems.  I feel sometimes mentally I am falling apart.  May be time to go in for some therapy or a tune up mentally.  Made a can of beef stew and grilled cheese sandwiches for supper.  Spent the night watching TV before we went to sleep early at 9 PM.  We both were so tired.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work by 7:30 AM.  Around 8 AM the phone rang and the caller ID said my dentist.  Jeez, not another cancellation the day of the appointment?  Ended up being my dentist asking if we can move up the appointment from 2 PM to 11 AM this morning.  I was so happy about this because I hate afternoon appointments.  I don't honestly know how much energy I will have in the afternoon so I try not to make afternoon appointments.  Went to the dentist and had two teeth drilled and filled.  My mouth is still numb.  Spent the afternoon listening to Lady Gaga again, her new Artpop and older music.  I like the second half of Artpop better than the first.  Making pork chops and rice with a salad for supper tonight.  Will also make some corn if I feel ambitious.  We were going to go to the premier of Dallas Buyers Club tonight but we talked and we will go see it this weekend instead.  There is a premier party tonight but Tony is tired after work and going out in the cold at dark when I am warm and comfy in the house just doesn't sound fun.  I did get into the 40s today in Milwaukee but was cloudy and windy making it feel cold.  Will most likely spend the night watching Greys Anatomy and TV from the DVR before we go to sleep.  The new cream my dermatologist prescribed for me seems to be making my rash more reddish.  To early to tell if it is working.  Time will tell.  Thank goodness I am not vane or I would never leave the house with this rash on my face.  When I picked up my monthly HIV prescriptions at the dentist / ARCW today we talked again how I think it is from the HIV med Epzicom and will talk to my HIV doctor in January when I see him next.

November 12, 2013 Tuesday Afternoon

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Tony left for work by 7:30 AM.  Read a little of the newspaper and then headed to the shower so I was clean for my 9:30 AM dermatologist appointment.  Saw the doctor and was told to stop the current cream and antibiotic since they are not doing anything to help with the skin rash on my face.  She said we could either try another cream or do a biopsy on the rash and see if we get more information.  Well, a biopsy on my face and stitches does not sound like fun so I went with trying the other cream with a steroid in it.  Stopped off at Walgreen's on my way home and picked up the new cream.  If this new cream doesn't work she will do a biopsy on my next appointment scheduled for the week before Christmas.  Was home for a while and then decided to drive to Menard's and return two pair of insulated jeans we bought that don't fit and the flooring I bought last weekend.  Returned everything fine and then bought a new garbage disposal (ours died the day before yesterday) and some new and different flooring I thought might be a good fit for the kitchen floor.  Got it all home and unloaded.  Started laying some of the tile down to see how it would look and got a good section laid out.  Soon Stella walked into the kitchen and when I saw her almost slide on the tile because it is so slippery I packed it all up and now I have to return this tile flooring.  Not sure what I am going to do with the kitchen floor.  I should have done a better job the first time and the tile wouldn't be coming up.  Should have put a new sub floor down first.  I am going to have to just rip out all the tile, sand the floor and start over I fear.  Laid on the couch with the dogs and listened to Lady Gaga's new and past music.  I didn't like her new Artpop CD at first but it is starting to grow on me each time I listen to it.  Made some salads and will put a frozen pizza in the oven for supper tonight.  Will most likely spend the night watching TV from the DVR as the TV records tonight's shows.  It got cold here in Milwaukee.  Winter is here.  The pond froze over last night and I was glad I got the heater in it the day before, just in time.  I don't think it even got above freezing or 32 degrees today.  I hate Winter and wonder every year why we live here.  I hate the cold.  I do like the snow, but hate the cold.  I just don't know where we would move since I don't like real hot humid weather either so down south is not an option either.  Middle of the US has too many tornadoes.  I will probably die here in Milwaukee. 

November 11, 2013 Monday Afternoon

Friday night we went to a friends house for a couple drinks, good conversation and listening and watching a roaring fire outside.  Stayed for a couple hours and had a good time.  Came home and after we watched a little TV we went to sleep.

Saturday morning we were up by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Spent the morning reading the newspaper.  Around 11:30 AM we left the house and went to Menard's to look at some flooring options for the kitchen and ended up buying other house items and supplies we needed.  Had lunch at Chili's and headed home.  Spent the rest of the day just watching TV with the dogs.  Around 4 PM we did find time to do a round of lovin.  Hadn't all week.  Jeez, doesn't last long when you wait a week.  Going to have to get back to daily if I want more than 5 minutes.  LOL.   Spent Saturday night watching TV from the DRV getting caught up on the past four episodes of Glee.

Sunday morning we were up again by 7 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Our ceiling fan in the living room does not work on the Winter setting direction so I took it down and had Tony install one we got from my parents a long time ago.  It is a nice ceiling fan but after we installed it we realized the only way to turn it off and on is the light switch on the wall which also controls the outlets for the computer and TV.  So we have to buy a ceiling fan with strings to turn it on and off so the on and off switch can stay in the on position for the TV and computer.  Took the newly installed ceiling fan down and boxed it up.  Decided to go to a lighting store downtown and look at ceiling fans since now we have to buy a new one.  I am not planning on spending more than $100 on a fan unless I found one that was way cool and different.  We did not find one that was within our price or one we wanted.  We then went to a Mexican restaurant for a late lunch.  Came home and spent the rest of the day watching TV from the DVR.  Went to bed around 8 PM and did the lovin thing.  Was planning on watching Good Wife and Mentalist but fell asleep and missed them. Thankfully I did record them and will watch them another night.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Took Vito to the vet at 10:15 AM to get his stitches removed.  Got him back home and spent a couple hours in the basement cleaning the basement and going through Christmas decorations to see what I have for this year.  Did a couple loads of laundry and watched the snow fall.  Yes, snow fall.  We got our first snow today.  They also started the last 8 unit section of the apartment development across the street.  Here is a picture of it from my front window.  They started the foundation today:

Tonight we will watch Dancing With The Stars and Castle before we go to sleep.  I have a dermatologist appointment tomorrow morning for the rash on my face that won't go away and I think it if from one of my HIV meds.

November 8, 2013 Friday Afternoon

Last night about 8 PM I was watching TV and Tony was in the shower when I heard this loud crash noise outside.  Something about a car crash noise you hear and then just know something is not right.  I got off the couch and looked out the window to see a car had slammed into the construction digger that was on the side of the road across the street.  For a second you look at the situation and try to analyze since it is not what you should see when you look out the window.   I ran to the back of the house to tell Tony there is an accident outside and ran outside to see if I could help.  I was the first to get to the woman in the car. She was dazed and wanted to know if she hurt anyone.  I said 'lady your the only one in the crash, are you ok?'   She said she was fine but just didn't seem all together.  I asked if she had been drinking and she said no.  The neighbors soon called the police and they arrived in about 10 minutes.  We spent the next hour watching the situation from the front window and were so surprised she never even got tested to see if she was drunk.  I think she was.  I found out this morning from a neighbor that she knew the lady and the lady knows the cops, hence no ticket for the accident or being drunk.  Gotta love Milwaukee police department.  Went to bed around 9:30 PM and after a little TV we went to sleep.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Got an email from the guy in Maine we were going to visit in March saying he totally understands if I cancel the trip.  I soon was on the phone with Southwest airlines and cancelled the tickets and got a complete refund.  My friend will cancel the hotel and said there will be no fees.  I felt like someone took a ton of bricks off my back when I was done canceling the trip.  Something will come along and we will do something that weekend closer to home.  We will still go somewhere but I will be close enough to home that if there is a problem we would be home in a matter of hours.  I will feel better this way and have fun.  I would not have fun worrying about my dogs for three days on the other side of the USA.  Had a great lunch with the guys this afternoon.  After lunch I went to Walmart and spent $170 on household items.  Had a lot of coupons and Walmart is the cheapest.  Tonight we are going to the friends house that helped me the day I found out I was HIV.  His partners birthday and a small get together with close friends.  Will be a nice laid back affair with a nice fire in the fireplace.  The guys from lunch will all be there too so it will be a great group of friends.  No plans this weekend.  Will be cold and hope we just stay home most the weekend except for getting some food.  Was cloudy and in the 40s today.

November 7, 2013 Thursday Afternoon

Yesterday I never left the house.  It rained most of the day and I spent most of the day just laying around watching TV with the dogs.  Did a couple loads of laundry and little things, but for the most part it was a waste of a day.  Made spaghetti for supper with some salads and garlic bread.  Spent the night watching last Sunday's Revenge and The Walking Dead, before we went to the bedroom and watched CSI in bed with the dogs.  Went to sleep after the local news.

This morning I was up by 6:30 AM.  Fed the dogs and gave Vito his shot.  Although it was not raining and the sun was out it was cold outside today.  Our coldest yet this season.  So I never left the house again today.  I started cleaning out a hallway closet which then turned into cleaning out the drawers.  That led to cleaning the spare bedroom closet and the main bedroom closet.  Got rid of a lot of clothes that we will never wear or fit us in our lifetime again.  Was then able to move some things around in the spare bedroom and then move some plants into that room, freeing up the dining room of the plants.  So I spent the entire day today cleaning and organizing the house.  Moved a lot of stuff to the basement which will be on my list next week to reorganize and clean.  I will then get out the Christmas decorations that go outside and maybe get some of them out, but not lit until closer to Christmas or after Thanksgiving.  Going to make fried left over spaghetti for Tony tonight with a salad.  He likes the left over spaghetti fried with butter to a crisp.  Like a pancake and almost burnt.  I will have a TV dinner and a salad.  Will most likely spend the night watching more TV from the DVR. 

Tony and I had a talk the other day and we are considering canceling the trip to Maine in March to get married.  I am having stress already over the thought of leaving the dogs and being so far away.  The cost of the airline tickets was $1600 and soon enough, Illinois will be granting gay marriage and the border is only an hour drive.  So I am thinking we might just go on a short over night stay for our anniversary in March and then get married in Illinois when it is legal there.  Just the thought of leaving the dogs or the house and not being able to drive back home starts to give me panic and anxiety.  I know, I am crazy, but I am just being honest.  I feel most secure at home and am happiest at home with my dogs.  It's just that simple.  So happiness is the most important and since Tony is happy to cancel the trip for now, I think we might.